Friday, September 05, 2003
life decisions
there's a decision that i had been fearing for most, if not all, of my college career. something that i felt that i never wanted but was pressured to do. and because of this i somewhat avoided it. however, it was still something that sparked and still does spark my curiosity very much. there are times when i can't seem to get away from it. not necessarily because it's always there and i just can't avoid it, but more because i'm so drawn to it...like a moth to a flame...
then there are the signs. i believe in signs. sometimes, they're as clear as day, blatant and in your face. sometimes, you have to read into the events in our life to see the hidden sign. sometimes, they're the messages that people tell you out of the blue or even the songs on the radio. and then you ask for more signs. not because you don't see the signs previously given, but just to make sure, to have confirmation. and then you get it in the homilies at mass or you open up a book and there it is. and then you can't deny it any longer. and a sequence of events start rolling down a path you never thought you'd follow. or again, like the previous paragraph, a path you didn't think was for you, one that you avoided. avoided because of fear... fear of the unknown... fear of failure... heck, fear of success.
it's funny because i never thought i'd be so comfortable about a decision that's been 7 years in the making. it was a thought that was so unnerving and now, i'm so excited about it. i can't wait to see what the future holds!
then there are the signs. i believe in signs. sometimes, they're as clear as day, blatant and in your face. sometimes, you have to read into the events in our life to see the hidden sign. sometimes, they're the messages that people tell you out of the blue or even the songs on the radio. and then you ask for more signs. not because you don't see the signs previously given, but just to make sure, to have confirmation. and then you get it in the homilies at mass or you open up a book and there it is. and then you can't deny it any longer. and a sequence of events start rolling down a path you never thought you'd follow. or again, like the previous paragraph, a path you didn't think was for you, one that you avoided. avoided because of fear... fear of the unknown... fear of failure... heck, fear of success.
it's funny because i never thought i'd be so comfortable about a decision that's been 7 years in the making. it was a thought that was so unnerving and now, i'm so excited about it. i can't wait to see what the future holds!
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quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
