Friday, December 05, 2003
my body's falling apart!
oh my gosh, everything hurts. my neck, my back, my shoulders. i feel like my entire bone structure is just all out of whack. got my ergonomic stuff here at work, and i removed the cpu from under the monitor cuz i felt like i was looking up and my neck was getting sore. i think it's better now, but still with the neck pain. maybe it's just stress. i did have an exam this past tuesday. i'm sure that contributed to it. and i got my test result yesterday and it was my 2nd to worst test. i was scared for that test too. i knew i didn't know the material too well. my grade was appropriate but not welcomed. so i sit here contemplating again, why oh why, didn't i just study just a little bit more in college. and why i'm not in grad school, and why i'm not where i think i ought to be. god, yesterday was just a bad day overall. had myself a nice good healthy cry though. i think my spirit needed it. i don't think i've cried that hard in a year. wow. there'd be months when i knew i needed to cry, but there wasn't anything to put me over that threshold to tears. yesterday started off with just a disappointment of not being able to go to disneyland and ended with my entire self-esteem crashing. i guess it's just one of those times.
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
