Tuesday, January 20, 2004
missing things
old skool toys, old lives past... we miss them yeah? our childhood, teenage years, even just college a few years ago. i know for a long time, i was missing college especially. i just read someone's "missing" list and i was trying to think, hmm, what do i miss? i thought of all the fun stuff and crazy antics i had, and yeah, i smiled as i reminisced for a moment. but i realized, no, i don't miss it anymore. i've come so far now and i don't think i can go back to such a state of mind-hehehe, or rather a lack of a state of mind. it was a time when my only goal was to be happy, but not really having any other goal in my life. at the time it made total sense, but now, crap, there's more than just being simply happy. cuz it was such a selfish time for me, where i did whatever i wanted without any real regard to consequences. i made mistakes, but i'm not really sure i learned very well from them. so there was a lot of repeated mistakes, unfortunately. i didn't know what i wanted, i don't think i had much respect for myself, the people in my life or the life that i had.
thank God life slapped me in the face a bit and i woke up from the dreamworld i was in. while it was just oh-so-much-fun, and i wouldn't trade my experiences for the world, i'm so grateful for how far i've come in such a short time. it's like i just woke up from the delusion i put myself in. and yeah, life's still very unsure and i sure miss being a kid without the worries of being a quarter century years old. but funnily enough, i'm at a point in my life where i'm pretty happy :) and i don't miss the past much at all.
thank God life slapped me in the face a bit and i woke up from the dreamworld i was in. while it was just oh-so-much-fun, and i wouldn't trade my experiences for the world, i'm so grateful for how far i've come in such a short time. it's like i just woke up from the delusion i put myself in. and yeah, life's still very unsure and i sure miss being a kid without the worries of being a quarter century years old. but funnily enough, i'm at a point in my life where i'm pretty happy :) and i don't miss the past much at all.
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quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
