Thursday, March 11, 2004
day off
so i took the day off yesterday, right? for 2 reasons: i felt like crap and couldn't get out of bed, and i just really really needed a "me" day. i've been feeling like my life is running away with me, out of my control. so i took a "me" day and i ran personal errands, like the ikea and the snowboard thing. also did laundry. and i found something i haven't worn since dana's bday party-yup, that was in the beginning of january. yikes.
as i was strollin around ikea, i had the most wonderful feeling of la-di-da-di-da-ness. it was glorious! i was thinking, this must be how it would be to not work. i looked around me and i saw lots of mom-type people, some with kids, some without (probably in school). and i had the split-second thought of, hmmm, it might be nice to be a stay-at-home mom. then i freaked out in the other split of that split-second and moved on with another thought.
i always said that i'd love it if i were the one that worked and my husband took care of the household things. i'm so not domestic (i mean, it took me 2 months to do laundry, what does that tell you?) and i really like work and the idea of being purposeful. but that little split-second thought and feeling kinda stays with me. i read cyn's blog and see the wonderful pictures of her adorable jieh lahn and goodness, who wouldn't want to stay home with such a blessing? it's been really nice reading throughout her pregnancy and new baby life and it'll be really nice to see how lil jieh lahn grows. it makes me rethink the whole stay-at-home mom thing. it'd be nice to actually experience every little thing with your child. plus, i could stroll around ikea whenever i want. but i suppose i couldn't go 2 months without doing laundry either. blah.
as i was strollin around ikea, i had the most wonderful feeling of la-di-da-di-da-ness. it was glorious! i was thinking, this must be how it would be to not work. i looked around me and i saw lots of mom-type people, some with kids, some without (probably in school). and i had the split-second thought of, hmmm, it might be nice to be a stay-at-home mom. then i freaked out in the other split of that split-second and moved on with another thought.
i always said that i'd love it if i were the one that worked and my husband took care of the household things. i'm so not domestic (i mean, it took me 2 months to do laundry, what does that tell you?) and i really like work and the idea of being purposeful. but that little split-second thought and feeling kinda stays with me. i read cyn's blog and see the wonderful pictures of her adorable jieh lahn and goodness, who wouldn't want to stay home with such a blessing? it's been really nice reading throughout her pregnancy and new baby life and it'll be really nice to see how lil jieh lahn grows. it makes me rethink the whole stay-at-home mom thing. it'd be nice to actually experience every little thing with your child. plus, i could stroll around ikea whenever i want. but i suppose i couldn't go 2 months without doing laundry either. blah.
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
