Friday, April 09, 2004
i met Jesus this week...
i've been slacking on these posts. also, i wasn't ready to post this. i had a huge disappointment this week. i so had my heart set on it and i totally thought i was gonna get it, but alas, i counted my chickens before they hatched. and i received a very thin envelope from western u on tuesday. of course it was the lovely rejection letter from the program that i had my heart set on.
but i met Him in all this because at first, i was numbed and i didn't want to think about it. but right before i opened the letter, i just said a quick and silent prayer, saying okay Lord, whatever you want, wherever you need me to be, you know what i'd like, but i'll go wherever it is you lead me... Your will be done, not mine. i think it totally helped when i read those disappointing words. and i was okay immediately after. just went on with my business and ate dinner, laughed at friends and got ready for bed... and cried that i didn't get what i really really wanted. but He comforted me as i thought i wonder what window He'll open for me... i remembered the sound of music when the mother superior told maria that when the Lord closes a door, He always opens a window. and yes, i'm disappointed, but it's not where He wants me to be, so i'll just follow. He's got a larger plan. and i can't wait for it to unfold.
thank You, Lord for guiding and blessing my life. on this day that we remember Your Passion and sorrow, may we offer our life to you every day and love others like You love us so unconditionally. luvulord!
but i met Him in all this because at first, i was numbed and i didn't want to think about it. but right before i opened the letter, i just said a quick and silent prayer, saying okay Lord, whatever you want, wherever you need me to be, you know what i'd like, but i'll go wherever it is you lead me... Your will be done, not mine. i think it totally helped when i read those disappointing words. and i was okay immediately after. just went on with my business and ate dinner, laughed at friends and got ready for bed... and cried that i didn't get what i really really wanted. but He comforted me as i thought i wonder what window He'll open for me... i remembered the sound of music when the mother superior told maria that when the Lord closes a door, He always opens a window. and yes, i'm disappointed, but it's not where He wants me to be, so i'll just follow. He's got a larger plan. and i can't wait for it to unfold.
thank You, Lord for guiding and blessing my life. on this day that we remember Your Passion and sorrow, may we offer our life to you every day and love others like You love us so unconditionally. luvulord!
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
