Saturday, June 18, 2005
i sad today...
ummmm, it comes and it goes... it's up and down, my moods i mean. today, i was sad. i saw him log on and log off this morning on aim, and i got sad. i got to work and i was fine because soooo busy and stressful. my chest still tight. not good, should see doctor for such. but i know it's stress-induced and i really just need to learn how to de-stress. i'ma have a heart attack one day because of this. anyway... so after work, after my thoughts have cleared a bit again, i remembered i was sad. i missed him, you know? it was such a beautiful day and i kept seeing all the disneyland anniversary billboards. if i wasn't doing anything, i know we would've gone to disneyland. i miss how he made me laugh... and his hugs. just sad that's all. i'll be fine i'm sure... just sad today.
had a partial good cry yesterday as mina, gemmie and i went to see sisterhood of the traveling pants. but not quite enough. i held it in and now it's stuck. so a bit more came out today as i was talking to a friend. just was telling him that i'm sad and it just all came out. needed to cry, but still stuck. need another really good cry. need to just heal. sad...
had a partial good cry yesterday as mina, gemmie and i went to see sisterhood of the traveling pants. but not quite enough. i held it in and now it's stuck. so a bit more came out today as i was talking to a friend. just was telling him that i'm sad and it just all came out. needed to cry, but still stuck. need another really good cry. need to just heal. sad...
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
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"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
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"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
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