Wednesday, June 15, 2005
i'm gonna miss it!!!!
arghhhh, so i have lots of gripes these days, but one of the more persisting gripe is that i'm gonna miss the next days with the Lord retreat! the women's batch 31 is scheduled for august 12-14, so all you dazers out there, please plan for mina and regina's batch. they've booked divine word, so yay! we like this place and it's not too far, so i'm sure the staffers will all come out.
i'll miss everyone... the camaraderie and the laughter... the singing and most of all, the disco. for those of you who share my joy in this community, you know how special these retreats are, not only for the paxes, but also for the staff. some dazers never return and think that they got all that they needed from their pax weekend, but really, for me, my growth and life began when i staffed. the pax weekend goes by so fast that it's hard to absorb absolutely everything. it's during talks that are assigned to you that you learn more of your self. and it's during activities that you are leading that you learn more about Christ. *sigh*... it's the first one that i've missed... ummmm.... ever?! oh my goodness! AND it's my best friend's rectorship batch too!!! this is ridiculous....
and why am i missing it? i suppose it's also for a good reason... a reason that days has also instilled in me in service to the Lord. i'm going to world youth day 2005 in cologne, germany with my church. we're leaving the monday before the retreat on the 8th. i had been seriously debating attending this pilgrimage where i will be one of 11 chaperones for 35 high school kids. all the events leading up to it has been a thorn in my side. there are many mothers involved in the planning of the fundraisers and gatherings, and many obligations needed to help raise funds to offset the trip costs. everything has been pretty cumbersome and not well organized... and just a pain in the butt. plus it's expensive, and if i were to go to europe, i really wasn't all that interested in germany anyway. and THEN, i have to miss the days retreat?! aughhh!!!
but like mina was reminding me, i felt the same way about hawaii... didn't see what was all the hoopla about it, but fell in love with the place afterward. so i'm sure the trip will be fine. i'm just thinking of all the negative things about it. plus my mom paid my balance and we'd lose $1500 if i cancelled now. i was pretty reluctant to cancel when it was only $500 we'd lose. so yes, i'm going. and it'll be good, i'm sure. but i will miss days. i've been missing it for over a year now. i remember the good ol' days when we used to have retreats every quarter of the year. women's then men's then women's then men's. it was like clockwork and it was beautiful to see everyone work together and continue to build on our friendship. we were a much stronger, tighter group then. (even with all the dramarama) but now, we're so much more disconnected and i'm a bit sad for it. it's different now of course, the demographics and individual purpose... and unfortunately, it's also not the main priority for many of this generation's dazers, hence the few and far in between batches of retreats. i hope this improves through the years. it's really difficult to jumpstart the community. it's hard because it seems like a daunting task for the rector and vice-rector, but really, we're all here to help. all you have to do is ask, cuz despite the distance of time and space, we will jump for you. we all say basta ikaw to you and to Him. so let's get it started again! and keep it going! so that i don't have to wait so long for the next one! *hehehe, internal motive*
i've digressed again... anyway, all of you have fun and enjoy His company at mina and reg's retreat. and please please please come and donate food and vigil with Him and just hang out! the recs need you, the paxes need you, He needs you... live the spirit dazers! and i'll be praying for you from europe. basta kayo!
i'll miss everyone... the camaraderie and the laughter... the singing and most of all, the disco. for those of you who share my joy in this community, you know how special these retreats are, not only for the paxes, but also for the staff. some dazers never return and think that they got all that they needed from their pax weekend, but really, for me, my growth and life began when i staffed. the pax weekend goes by so fast that it's hard to absorb absolutely everything. it's during talks that are assigned to you that you learn more of your self. and it's during activities that you are leading that you learn more about Christ. *sigh*... it's the first one that i've missed... ummmm.... ever?! oh my goodness! AND it's my best friend's rectorship batch too!!! this is ridiculous....
and why am i missing it? i suppose it's also for a good reason... a reason that days has also instilled in me in service to the Lord. i'm going to world youth day 2005 in cologne, germany with my church. we're leaving the monday before the retreat on the 8th. i had been seriously debating attending this pilgrimage where i will be one of 11 chaperones for 35 high school kids. all the events leading up to it has been a thorn in my side. there are many mothers involved in the planning of the fundraisers and gatherings, and many obligations needed to help raise funds to offset the trip costs. everything has been pretty cumbersome and not well organized... and just a pain in the butt. plus it's expensive, and if i were to go to europe, i really wasn't all that interested in germany anyway. and THEN, i have to miss the days retreat?! aughhh!!!
but like mina was reminding me, i felt the same way about hawaii... didn't see what was all the hoopla about it, but fell in love with the place afterward. so i'm sure the trip will be fine. i'm just thinking of all the negative things about it. plus my mom paid my balance and we'd lose $1500 if i cancelled now. i was pretty reluctant to cancel when it was only $500 we'd lose. so yes, i'm going. and it'll be good, i'm sure. but i will miss days. i've been missing it for over a year now. i remember the good ol' days when we used to have retreats every quarter of the year. women's then men's then women's then men's. it was like clockwork and it was beautiful to see everyone work together and continue to build on our friendship. we were a much stronger, tighter group then. (even with all the dramarama) but now, we're so much more disconnected and i'm a bit sad for it. it's different now of course, the demographics and individual purpose... and unfortunately, it's also not the main priority for many of this generation's dazers, hence the few and far in between batches of retreats. i hope this improves through the years. it's really difficult to jumpstart the community. it's hard because it seems like a daunting task for the rector and vice-rector, but really, we're all here to help. all you have to do is ask, cuz despite the distance of time and space, we will jump for you. we all say basta ikaw to you and to Him. so let's get it started again! and keep it going! so that i don't have to wait so long for the next one! *hehehe, internal motive*
i've digressed again... anyway, all of you have fun and enjoy His company at mina and reg's retreat. and please please please come and donate food and vigil with Him and just hang out! the recs need you, the paxes need you, He needs you... live the spirit dazers! and i'll be praying for you from europe. basta kayo!
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