Monday, July 11, 2005
i was trying to get out of the world youth day trip. i'm really negative about it. mostly because of what i'm gonna be missing. so i haven't been looking forward to it at all. i called our organizer to talk to the travel agent to see what the penalties would be to cancel. it's like $1400. i'm not willing to lose that much. so i'm going. but i'm still annoyed at it all.
so my mom called me to find out my vote on what kind of hat (bucket, like fisherman's hat, visor, or baseball) the parents should buy in order to make the group more visible and easier to keep track of. i had already seen the email going around and was annoyed at it all. and i told her, i'm not a pilgrim, i'm a chaperone. if they wanted me to vote, i vote for none of the above. and if they buy one for me, i wouldn't wear it anyway. i was kind of a b*tch about it and i feel bad that i snapped at my mom for it. she just said, oh okay, bye. she's so good at dealing with us brats.
so yea, i'm going. i'm sure there's some reason why He needs me to go. i know it's something about sacrificing what i want to make room for Him. and ultimately surrendering my life and my decisions to Him and what He needs of me. yes, i'm willing. i just gotta stop looking back at what i'm missing. or i'll turn into a pillar of salt like Lot's wife. *sigh*
so my mom called me to find out my vote on what kind of hat (bucket, like fisherman's hat, visor, or baseball) the parents should buy in order to make the group more visible and easier to keep track of. i had already seen the email going around and was annoyed at it all. and i told her, i'm not a pilgrim, i'm a chaperone. if they wanted me to vote, i vote for none of the above. and if they buy one for me, i wouldn't wear it anyway. i was kind of a b*tch about it and i feel bad that i snapped at my mom for it. she just said, oh okay, bye. she's so good at dealing with us brats.
so yea, i'm going. i'm sure there's some reason why He needs me to go. i know it's something about sacrificing what i want to make room for Him. and ultimately surrendering my life and my decisions to Him and what He needs of me. yes, i'm willing. i just gotta stop looking back at what i'm missing. or i'll turn into a pillar of salt like Lot's wife. *sigh*
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
