Monday, July 18, 2005
old crushes, old friends, and a new musical!
when i was like 9 or 10 years old, i had this crush on a boy. he was older; a mature 11 or 12. hahah! i just found out that he recently got married and it's so funny how it seriously left me distraught! he actually grew up to be quite a handsome, nice guy. good job, great family. and i just felt like, crap, wasn't he just asking me out for coffee a lil while ago? well, that coffee invitation was actually more like 3 years ago, right at the time when i was just starting another relationship. just not meant to be, i suppose. God has larger plans anyway.
the past couple of weekends have just been fabulous! it's been full of birthday parties for all the july babies. i swear, oct is just a month to make them. goodness!
2 weekends ago, the best part was the my 'n toots night. my best friend and i had a lil sleepover at her apt cuz her new hubby was out of town. it was a great night of sharing and continuing to build what we had started with all the wedding planning hangouts. sometimes i feel like it's such a vulnerable relationship. it's quite high maintenance and if we don't connect for a long time, it's soo much harder to start back up. i was reading a book about friendships one time and it contrasted friends and acquaintances. with acquaintainces, you talk of events, with friends, you talk of feelings. that weekend, when we finally shut off the computer and tv, we talked of feelings. it was a really nice night of bonding. we talked until the sun was coming up. i love that girl. as strange as our "best friendship" seems to people, i treasure her and our friendship. so we resolved to have a weekly my 'n toots night. i like it. it's so cute. last wednesday, we went for crepes, just randomly and had a nice talk. and this week, we're going to vegas for another friend's bachelorette party. there are moments here and there, when i'll flash-forward to our future together. i see me at her bedside as she's having her first baby. and helping her with her kids... and lending a shoulder when one of our parents pass away... dangit, *choked up*. she's my lifelong friend and i love her.
i saw wicked the musical last weekend too. oh my god, it was sooo good!!!! i absolutely loved it! thanx to norman's coworker who got us FREE tickets! they were really good seats too! center mezzanine row G in the pantages theatre. the company was great, the musical was great. thanx for the invite normy!
life has been quite dandy lately. i hesitate to say such things sometimes, cuz i don't wanna jinx it. but really, it's been quite lovely. it's good to reconnect with old friends, make some friends out of some acquaintances, strengthen current bonds, and simple things, like breakfast with my parents has been really refreshingly wonderful. bible study last night had really good discussions too. it's one of those where we talked about everything under the sun. and that lil community really helps me with my journey. i find that i'm quite content with my life and my life in my faith. i fell asleep just talking to Him last night, feeling just in love with Him. sometimes, i'll feel lonely in my bed, wanting someone to hold me. and last night, He did. it was the most comforting feeling ever. can't beat that. amen.
the past couple of weekends have just been fabulous! it's been full of birthday parties for all the july babies. i swear, oct is just a month to make them. goodness!
2 weekends ago, the best part was the my 'n toots night. my best friend and i had a lil sleepover at her apt cuz her new hubby was out of town. it was a great night of sharing and continuing to build what we had started with all the wedding planning hangouts. sometimes i feel like it's such a vulnerable relationship. it's quite high maintenance and if we don't connect for a long time, it's soo much harder to start back up. i was reading a book about friendships one time and it contrasted friends and acquaintances. with acquaintainces, you talk of events, with friends, you talk of feelings. that weekend, when we finally shut off the computer and tv, we talked of feelings. it was a really nice night of bonding. we talked until the sun was coming up. i love that girl. as strange as our "best friendship" seems to people, i treasure her and our friendship. so we resolved to have a weekly my 'n toots night. i like it. it's so cute. last wednesday, we went for crepes, just randomly and had a nice talk. and this week, we're going to vegas for another friend's bachelorette party. there are moments here and there, when i'll flash-forward to our future together. i see me at her bedside as she's having her first baby. and helping her with her kids... and lending a shoulder when one of our parents pass away... dangit, *choked up*. she's my lifelong friend and i love her.
i saw wicked the musical last weekend too. oh my god, it was sooo good!!!! i absolutely loved it! thanx to norman's coworker who got us FREE tickets! they were really good seats too! center mezzanine row G in the pantages theatre. the company was great, the musical was great. thanx for the invite normy!
life has been quite dandy lately. i hesitate to say such things sometimes, cuz i don't wanna jinx it. but really, it's been quite lovely. it's good to reconnect with old friends, make some friends out of some acquaintances, strengthen current bonds, and simple things, like breakfast with my parents has been really refreshingly wonderful. bible study last night had really good discussions too. it's one of those where we talked about everything under the sun. and that lil community really helps me with my journey. i find that i'm quite content with my life and my life in my faith. i fell asleep just talking to Him last night, feeling just in love with Him. sometimes, i'll feel lonely in my bed, wanting someone to hold me. and last night, He did. it was the most comforting feeling ever. can't beat that. amen.
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
