footprints in my heart...

i'm home again. just got back from lunch and hanging out with mina and her family while they get ready to move to vegas. it was a nice visit and a good almost last time before i see her again. it's always in those little moments that our friendship gets built up. we tend to be activity partners, but i really try to make a conscious effort to not have activities when we're together actually. i enjoy so much more the random talking and connecting with each other. she's such a silly girl and she cracks me up. i love our laughter and will miss those days when we were just a short drive away. but it's cool, cuz she'll be here next week for my birthday. hurray! yay, i feel speyshall, i'm loved! it's always at this time of year when i wonder about that. sometimes, we just need validation that we're loved, you know? hehe, that's why i love friends like noreen. she's always so free to express how much she loves and cares for her friends. that's something i try to work on these days too. cuz everyone needs to know that i love them. so if you're reading this, you're most likely a friend of mine and if i haven't told you lately, I LOVE YOU!

so i'm home now and i'm feeling rather sad. i think i'd like to have a bunch of kids now, cuz i really, really, really don't like coming home to such an empty house. i miss my parents and my brothers. my parents and christian are coming home tonight, so i actually need to clean a lot. i made such a mess around here. all my craftsy stuff is everywhere cuz i was cutting paper last night. i have to clean the sink cuz i (successfully!) made my first batch of green apple martini last night. oh god, and i broke the pretty blue martini glass cuz i was freaking faded in the jacuzzi. aughh, gotta clean that up too. but the martini was soooo good! i'm so proud of myself, cuz i don't think i can concoct drinks or food very well. i can get by when needed, but i impressed myself with that drink! soo good! come over sometime and i'll make you one. next on my goal list is the caramel apple martini. cuz mina likes that one. she likes the sweet stuff. brian, what was it again that makes it caramel? cici can answer that one too i bet.

so plans for my birthday are starting to take shape. i really want to take my parents and brothers to korean bbq, to the all-you-can-eat korean bbq at manna. so hopefully they'll want to drive out to la for it next tuesday. they get kinda lazy to drive out to places. and then, i'm totally thinking of going through with my originally planned vegas trip on the weekend after labor day. i was struggling with those plans cuz i was actually foregoing that trip for a trip up to sf and i was sad about it. but i think i can find a way to do both, so right now, my plans will look like, vegas on that weekend, work on mon/tues, drive up to sf either early wed or tues night. and i have my personal retreat on the weekend after. and then whoohoo, hawaii in october. with or without anyone. i'm going. i need that vacation. i'm a bit concerned about the money matters that this will all take. so i actually will decide by the end of august. that's when deadlines are for all my massive reports at work. and the stress at work will definitely determine my vacation plans. cuz when it comes down to it, regaining my sanity is worth spending money on. it'll be less costly than if i have a heart attack, that's for sure. i already have chest pains every now and again for goodness' sake. anyway... so who's up for vegas?! let's go, let's go, let's go!!! i know someone who can get girls into rain and ghostbar for free. sorry guys, you'll have to wait in line still. but let's go, let's go, let's go!

okay, i'll end it here... gotta clean and poop anyway. happy sunday people!