Thursday, September 29, 2005
the healing retreat
you know when you read through old blogs... well, i actually hand wrote some journals during my retreat in santa cruz. i wanted to transcribe them to this electronic venue. but just haven't had time to do so quite yet. but i was reading what i wrote... and i'm sooo glad i journalled that weekend. there were so many revelations and so much joy and peace in my writing. it's wonderful to be able to relive that.
some of the things that were revealed to me that weekend:
~ i didn't know i had such anger issues regarding my immigration to the united states when i was a child!
~ the super amazing power of prayer! it was amazing how we were able to pray very specifically for exactly what the stranger in front of us needed.
~ i didn't know that men loved so deeply. i think this lack of understanding led me to not take care of their hearts as i should have. i guess i had the notion that they're these big, tough guys, so they can take it. but they have this amazing capacity to love their spouses and the Lord. they just don't show it as easily as women do, but when they do, my God, there is awesome power in it. i grew a lot of respect for men in general that weekend.
~ i fell... literally. and i fell for Him, because of His Spirit. it was the first time and it was just so strange! as i stood in the line to receive the blessing, i was so curious as to how people fell (was it like fainting? do you get dizzy first? or weak?) and why... and they fully expected it to happen, as the facilitators requested volunteers to be "catchers". i'm all, catchers, for what? and when it was my turn, i fell. it was just the most peaceful thing. i didn't wanna sleep, cuz i was too excited, but i also didn't want to get up. i loved just lying there in His peace. weirdddd, i know!
~ philippians 4:4-7
~ men's greatness lie in exposing their vulnerabilities. i have immense respect and admiration for those who can be humble enough to share their weaknesses, while still crediting their strength to the love of God. i met many honorable men that weekend.
~ my greatness... i have none. my purpose in this life is not greatness. i realize that. but somehow, i do recognize it in others. and i have this way of encouraging them to achieve their greatness. i just bring others' greatness out of them to share with the rest of the God's people. that's my gift.
some of the things that were revealed to me that weekend:
~ i didn't know i had such anger issues regarding my immigration to the united states when i was a child!
~ the super amazing power of prayer! it was amazing how we were able to pray very specifically for exactly what the stranger in front of us needed.
~ i didn't know that men loved so deeply. i think this lack of understanding led me to not take care of their hearts as i should have. i guess i had the notion that they're these big, tough guys, so they can take it. but they have this amazing capacity to love their spouses and the Lord. they just don't show it as easily as women do, but when they do, my God, there is awesome power in it. i grew a lot of respect for men in general that weekend.
~ i fell... literally. and i fell for Him, because of His Spirit. it was the first time and it was just so strange! as i stood in the line to receive the blessing, i was so curious as to how people fell (was it like fainting? do you get dizzy first? or weak?) and why... and they fully expected it to happen, as the facilitators requested volunteers to be "catchers". i'm all, catchers, for what? and when it was my turn, i fell. it was just the most peaceful thing. i didn't wanna sleep, cuz i was too excited, but i also didn't want to get up. i loved just lying there in His peace. weirdddd, i know!
~ philippians 4:4-7
~ men's greatness lie in exposing their vulnerabilities. i have immense respect and admiration for those who can be humble enough to share their weaknesses, while still crediting their strength to the love of God. i met many honorable men that weekend.
~ my greatness... i have none. my purpose in this life is not greatness. i realize that. but somehow, i do recognize it in others. and i have this way of encouraging them to achieve their greatness. i just bring others' greatness out of them to share with the rest of the God's people. that's my gift.
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quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
