Friday, February 27, 2004
i am not!!!
Thursday, February 26, 2004
moment of pride
i totally forgot to post this yesterday! i had such a tremendous feeling of accomplishment yesterday, i was so proud of myself! i have never done this before. i never tried it cuz i was afraid i'd screw it all up. and yesterday there was a perfect opportunity, a perfect chance and i was so perfectly aligned! yesterday... for the first time ever in my 8 years of driving... i successfully... tun tun tun!!!... backed into a parking space! yay for meee!!! you wouldn't believe the smile i had walking back into the office. i was absolutely beaming!
new discovery
so i was checking on who the referrers are to my bl0g and someone had searched out tagalog love songs and found my blog on like the 38th page of g00gle. the hilarious part that i didn't notice until later is that the entire g00gle search site is in tagalog! i was cracking up at all the translations! they've got "Hanapin sa Google" for "Search in Google" and "Nakaraan" & "Susunod" for "Previous" & "Next". i loved it! "cached" became "naka-cache". guess there's no word for "cache" in tagalog!
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
current events
i don't really keep up with current events. i barely look at the newspaper anymore, when i used to read the front section cover to cover. that was back when i had time. now, the only glimpses i get of the news is what i catch while my dad is watching cnn. thank goodness he watches it a lot.
have you been keeping up with this whole gay marriage thing in san francisco and new mexico? it's been all over the place lately and i found out through wil wheaton's blog of all places, that george w. bush has "called for an amendment to the Constitution that would effectively codify homosexuals as second-class citizens". wtf? you know what immediately came to mind? x-men, when they were trying to push a measure to register all of the mutants. wil's blog recalled racial segregation and the civil rights movement. and i'd have to agree that it sounds really against what this country is for.
now, i don't really know where i stand on this issue, cuz i find homosexuals completely loving and normal people. i have relatives who are homosexual and we love them and treat them just the same. however, my religion finds homosexual activity (not the people, but the act of having sexual relations with a member of the same sex) to be immoral. i haven't decided on the morality of this issue, but for the government to "track" its citizens and declare any of them as second-class citizens really doesn't sound right. isn't it backtracking from all our civil rights progress? i dunno about that...
have you been keeping up with this whole gay marriage thing in san francisco and new mexico? it's been all over the place lately and i found out through wil wheaton's blog of all places, that george w. bush has "called for an amendment to the Constitution that would effectively codify homosexuals as second-class citizens". wtf? you know what immediately came to mind? x-men, when they were trying to push a measure to register all of the mutants. wil's blog recalled racial segregation and the civil rights movement. and i'd have to agree that it sounds really against what this country is for.
now, i don't really know where i stand on this issue, cuz i find homosexuals completely loving and normal people. i have relatives who are homosexual and we love them and treat them just the same. however, my religion finds homosexual activity (not the people, but the act of having sexual relations with a member of the same sex) to be immoral. i haven't decided on the morality of this issue, but for the government to "track" its citizens and declare any of them as second-class citizens really doesn't sound right. isn't it backtracking from all our civil rights progress? i dunno about that...
happy ash wednesday
the first thing my mom told me this morning was, "it's ash wednesday. it's one full meal only today." today is the first day of lent and a day of fasting and abstinence. that means we fast (not eat) and abstain from meat (not eat meat). my mom told me "one full meal today" because the church doesn't call for us to starve and faint and not be able to function. just sacrifice what you normally have and feel the absence of something we take for granted.
cicely asked during last bible study what we're giving up during for lent. there was a nice discussion of why we give something up. a comment i made was that it's not like when we were little kids and we just give up chocolate or candy. some people back in college would even give up rice. goodness, now that's a sacrifice. but the point i made is that instead of giving something up, i try to do something extra, like going to church every day. someone else said that she is going to sacrifice eating out all the time and donate that money she saves to a charity-also a very nice idea. and someone else pointed out that this lenten period isn't just to give something up for 40 days, but to do something to improve your relationship with Christ even after the 40 days-so maybe to continue to sacrifice or focus more on Him.
but what's the point of the sacrifice? as good as my additional prayers at daily mass will be, and dana's contribution to charity, i think there is still worth in sacrificing for lent. and even the whole fasting and abstinence thing. first of all, it imitates Christ, which is the ultimate goal of our lives. when He sacrificed in the desert for 40 days and nights without any food or water and being constantly tempted by the devil, His humanity was extremely tested. in sacrificing food for one day, it's only a small way that we can be more like Him. also, i think it's to remind us of what we have in Him, realize our hunger-both of physical nourishment and spiritual, and celebrate the fulfillment of that hunger when Easter arrives. as we feel physical hunger for food, it's a reminder of what life would be like without the Bread of Life. and when Easter comes, it's a wonderful celebration with our family, full of food and abundance, just like the abundance that we receive upon Jesus' resurrection and His gift of everlasting love and life to us!
so today, yes, fast and abstain from meat. but more importantly, reflect about why you do this and pray about it. and do it, not because of obligation to an institution's rules, but because you want to be close to Him and know how empty life would be without Him. and do it joyfully!
cicely asked during last bible study what we're giving up during for lent. there was a nice discussion of why we give something up. a comment i made was that it's not like when we were little kids and we just give up chocolate or candy. some people back in college would even give up rice. goodness, now that's a sacrifice. but the point i made is that instead of giving something up, i try to do something extra, like going to church every day. someone else said that she is going to sacrifice eating out all the time and donate that money she saves to a charity-also a very nice idea. and someone else pointed out that this lenten period isn't just to give something up for 40 days, but to do something to improve your relationship with Christ even after the 40 days-so maybe to continue to sacrifice or focus more on Him.
but what's the point of the sacrifice? as good as my additional prayers at daily mass will be, and dana's contribution to charity, i think there is still worth in sacrificing for lent. and even the whole fasting and abstinence thing. first of all, it imitates Christ, which is the ultimate goal of our lives. when He sacrificed in the desert for 40 days and nights without any food or water and being constantly tempted by the devil, His humanity was extremely tested. in sacrificing food for one day, it's only a small way that we can be more like Him. also, i think it's to remind us of what we have in Him, realize our hunger-both of physical nourishment and spiritual, and celebrate the fulfillment of that hunger when Easter arrives. as we feel physical hunger for food, it's a reminder of what life would be like without the Bread of Life. and when Easter comes, it's a wonderful celebration with our family, full of food and abundance, just like the abundance that we receive upon Jesus' resurrection and His gift of everlasting love and life to us!
so today, yes, fast and abstain from meat. but more importantly, reflect about why you do this and pray about it. and do it, not because of obligation to an institution's rules, but because you want to be close to Him and know how empty life would be without Him. and do it joyfully!
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
to do list:
~ write personal statement!
it's always the last thing put off... got my letters of recommendation all set and ready to pick up this week, just one last darned thing. that's where i'll be tonight!
it's always the last thing put off... got my letters of recommendation all set and ready to pick up this week, just one last darned thing. that's where i'll be tonight!
Friday, February 20, 2004
a line from marianne's blog reminded me of this song:
Take and Receive
Based on the prayer by Saint Ignatius of Loyola
Music by Manoling Francisco, SJ
Take and receive, O Lord, my liberty.
Take all my will, my mind, and memory.
All things I hold, and all I own are thine.
Thine was the gift, to thee, I all resign.
Do thou direct and govern all and sway,
Do what thou wilt command, and I obey.
Only thy grace, thy love on me bestow,
These make me rich, all else will I forego. (repeat 2)
with all of these songs rushing to my mind, i guess i'm getting ready for the days with the lord retreat weekend at the end of the month. i'm so excited for it actually. and i can't believe it's been a year. my heart misses it so very very much. i can't wait! basta ikaw!
Based on the prayer by Saint Ignatius of Loyola
Music by Manoling Francisco, SJ
Take and receive, O Lord, my liberty.
Take all my will, my mind, and memory.
All things I hold, and all I own are thine.
Thine was the gift, to thee, I all resign.
Do thou direct and govern all and sway,
Do what thou wilt command, and I obey.
Only thy grace, thy love on me bestow,
These make me rich, all else will I forego. (repeat 2)
with all of these songs rushing to my mind, i guess i'm getting ready for the days with the lord retreat weekend at the end of the month. i'm so excited for it actually. and i can't believe it's been a year. my heart misses it so very very much. i can't wait! basta ikaw!
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
glenn's song...
Life, is not all that bad my friend (Hm-m-mmm...)
If you believe in yourself, if you believe there's someone,
Who'll walk through life with you,
You'll never be alone, just learn to reach out, and open your heart.
Lift up your hands to God, and He'll show you the way.
Refrain:
And he said, "Cast your burdens upon me,
Those who are heavily laiden.
Come to me all of you who are tired of carrying heavy loads
For the yoke I will give you is easy and my burden is light.
Come to me, and I will give you rest."
When you feel the the world is tumbling down on you.
And you have no one that you can hold on to.
Just face the rising sun, and you'll see hope, and there's no need to run.
Lift up your hands to God and He'll make you feel alright. (Ref.)
ask a dazer one time why this is glenn's song. with all things with glenn, it will bring a smile (or a laugh) to your heart!
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
good movie!
hahahaha! i totally cracked up with 50 first dates! maybe it was the hawaiian setting that made me fall in love with it. maybe it was the hawaiian music. maybe it was drew barrymore's endearing character. maybe it was adam sandler's character's unselfish, unconditional love for her. all i know is that it was absolutely adorable! they could've definitely developed the characters and the story more fully, but for what it is, it's a really cute date movie! i definitely recommend it!
Monday, February 16, 2004
family time
i find these days that i really love living at home. no, not just cuz of the free rent. but really cuz i get to spend time with my family. i get to help raise my brother and get to know him, especially during these times when he's starting to crush on girls (17 year old ones, mind you. he's only 13!). i'm glad i'm here to motivate him and help explain things when my parents are freaking out. and it's nice to get to know my parents more. kind of a funny concept, because i've known them my whole life. but you go through different stages in your relationship with your parents, right? when i was a kid, they were my whole world, especially cuz i was an only child for 6 years. then as a teenager, they were my inhibitants. no, not inhabitants, but people who inhibited me. even for most of my college years that's how i saw them. but slowly, especially nowadays, i listen to them more, listen to them laugh, have arguments, work together, comfort each other, love each other. and i try to pay attention to everything i overhear, cuz i know it's gonna be a learning experience. i used to eavesdrop to figure out if they're talking about me (to find out if i'm in trouble again). these days, i listen more to appreciate their relationship and to hope and wish that i will have a similar love with my future husband.
oh, and what spurred on this thought? it was valentine's day this weekend, of course. it's also a huge family weekend, as it's my parent's anniversary-28 years this year. and on the 15th was my dad's 55th birthday. all the relatives came over for my dad's party. i always end up hanging out with the parents and not really the cousins. i'm so much older than the cousins and it's hard for me to just hang out with them. half the time, i just wanna slap 'em around cuz they're acting dumb. but i'm sure i acted that way too at that age.
oh and it was quite a lovely valentine's evening. glenn suprised me with a play over at the pasadena playhouse called talley's folly. i really loved it. it was very different, cuz we usually see musicals and this one was with just two characters. but it was very well-written, with a progression between very defensive people with their own emotional baggage finally letting their guard down and letting the other person in. they were two eggs who finally let their shells be cracked. but the story was beautiful and it was truly a waltz... a one, two, three, a one, two, three... thanx verwin for the tickets!
"Talley's Folly is a charmer, filled to the brim with hope, humor, and chutzpah. This is a treasure." - Walter Kerr, New York Times
One of America's most gifted playwrights brings his brilliant and poetic masterpiece to Pasadena. In the early 1980's Wilson, along with his long-time collaborator Marshall Mason, created a buzz first Off-Broadway, at New York's Circle Repertory Company, and later on Broadway with what came to be known as the Talley Trilogy - a series of plays which provide a vivid portrait of America in the 20th century through the lives of the Talley family of Lebanon, Missouri. Talley's Folly received the most critical attention of these plays, receiving numerous awards and nominations including the New York Drama Critics Circle, five Tony Award nominations and the Pulitzer Prize for drama.
In Talley's Folly, we are introduced to Sally Talley, a young woman who is enmeshed in a duet of yearning, loneliness and triumphant love found in the most unlikely of places. It is the Fourth of July and 41 year-old Matt (originally played by Judd Hirsch, for whom Wilson wrote the play), must confront his illusions as he pleads his love to young Sally. Unaccepted by her family and separated by class, they share a love at first improbable but quite possibly redeeming. This play became an instant classic of the Broadway stage. A Co-Production with the Arizona Theatre Company.
the gres, however, were not as glorious. had them sunday morning and though it wasn't that long, it was not painless either. i guess i had higher expectations and i just was not happy with my score. i was pretty much in a crappy mood the rest of the day even though i felt better after talking to jei about what a "good" score is to compensate the bad (bad, not in quotations, for it is literally bad) gpa on applications for grad school programs. good thing the program i'm applying for finds leadership skills and experience an important part of their applicants. that's gonna have to weigh out the not-so-good numbers. i was thinking of retaking the exam, but after speaking to the student coordinator, it doesn't even matter so much during the application process. so i just have to settle for the fact that i did my best at that time and they'll have to recognize my worth not through my numbers, but by my letters of recommendation and personal statement. well, we'll see what He has planned for me. all i can do is go through the process and do my best, right?
oh, and what spurred on this thought? it was valentine's day this weekend, of course. it's also a huge family weekend, as it's my parent's anniversary-28 years this year. and on the 15th was my dad's 55th birthday. all the relatives came over for my dad's party. i always end up hanging out with the parents and not really the cousins. i'm so much older than the cousins and it's hard for me to just hang out with them. half the time, i just wanna slap 'em around cuz they're acting dumb. but i'm sure i acted that way too at that age.
oh and it was quite a lovely valentine's evening. glenn suprised me with a play over at the pasadena playhouse called talley's folly. i really loved it. it was very different, cuz we usually see musicals and this one was with just two characters. but it was very well-written, with a progression between very defensive people with their own emotional baggage finally letting their guard down and letting the other person in. they were two eggs who finally let their shells be cracked. but the story was beautiful and it was truly a waltz... a one, two, three, a one, two, three... thanx verwin for the tickets!
"Talley's Folly is a charmer, filled to the brim with hope, humor, and chutzpah. This is a treasure." - Walter Kerr, New York Times
One of America's most gifted playwrights brings his brilliant and poetic masterpiece to Pasadena. In the early 1980's Wilson, along with his long-time collaborator Marshall Mason, created a buzz first Off-Broadway, at New York's Circle Repertory Company, and later on Broadway with what came to be known as the Talley Trilogy - a series of plays which provide a vivid portrait of America in the 20th century through the lives of the Talley family of Lebanon, Missouri. Talley's Folly received the most critical attention of these plays, receiving numerous awards and nominations including the New York Drama Critics Circle, five Tony Award nominations and the Pulitzer Prize for drama.
In Talley's Folly, we are introduced to Sally Talley, a young woman who is enmeshed in a duet of yearning, loneliness and triumphant love found in the most unlikely of places. It is the Fourth of July and 41 year-old Matt (originally played by Judd Hirsch, for whom Wilson wrote the play), must confront his illusions as he pleads his love to young Sally. Unaccepted by her family and separated by class, they share a love at first improbable but quite possibly redeeming. This play became an instant classic of the Broadway stage. A Co-Production with the Arizona Theatre Company.
the gres, however, were not as glorious. had them sunday morning and though it wasn't that long, it was not painless either. i guess i had higher expectations and i just was not happy with my score. i was pretty much in a crappy mood the rest of the day even though i felt better after talking to jei about what a "good" score is to compensate the bad (bad, not in quotations, for it is literally bad) gpa on applications for grad school programs. good thing the program i'm applying for finds leadership skills and experience an important part of their applicants. that's gonna have to weigh out the not-so-good numbers. i was thinking of retaking the exam, but after speaking to the student coordinator, it doesn't even matter so much during the application process. so i just have to settle for the fact that i did my best at that time and they'll have to recognize my worth not through my numbers, but by my letters of recommendation and personal statement. well, we'll see what He has planned for me. all i can do is go through the process and do my best, right?
Thursday, February 12, 2004
in honor of valentine's day 2...
you like the color? it's the color of my suit today. hehehe!
in honor of valentine's day...
it's a day of love... not just for your significant other, but for your fellow human being. kids tell it best, so here's what they think:
A group of professional people posed this question to a
group of 4-to-8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The
answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could
have imagined.
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over
and couldn't paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather
does it for her all the time, even when his hands got
arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is
different. You know that your name is safe in their
mouth." Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on
shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl
- age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of
your French fries without making them give you any of
theirs." Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri -
age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she
takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste
is OK." Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get
tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you
talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look
gross when they kiss." Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you
stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with
a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6
"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But
God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he
wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who
are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was
scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my
daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that.
I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone
else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still
says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you
left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all
her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren
- age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and
little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she
doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.
But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People
forget." Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia
once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The
purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year-old-child whose next door
neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his
wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the
old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat
there. When his Mother asked him what he had said to the
neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him
cry."
What does love mean to you??
A group of professional people posed this question to a
group of 4-to-8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The
answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could
have imagined.
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over
and couldn't paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather
does it for her all the time, even when his hands got
arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is
different. You know that your name is safe in their
mouth." Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on
shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl
- age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of
your French fries without making them give you any of
theirs." Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri -
age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she
takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste
is OK." Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get
tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you
talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look
gross when they kiss." Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you
stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with
a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6
"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But
God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he
wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who
are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was
scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my
daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that.
I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone
else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still
says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you
left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all
her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren
- age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and
little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she
doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.
But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People
forget." Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia
once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The
purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year-old-child whose next door
neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his
wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the
old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat
there. When his Mother asked him what he had said to the
neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him
cry."
What does love mean to you??
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
states i've been to...
create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide
you people who've been to other countries can make a more interesting map of the places you've visited. thanx to luckykat & gg for this link.
bad boy
i came home last night and my brother was watching tv as usual in my room. he hasn't been getting good grades lately and my dad discovered him watching tv in my room. so he told him to go read a book. the kid left my room and started practicing the drums (he plays in the band and is getting ready to try out for the high school drumline-cool, huh?). anyway, my dad went to his room and started asking him, why aren't you reading? and my idiot brother answers back, mumbling, cuz i don't feel like reading so of course, my dad gets all pissed off, starting to yell, what did you say? and he proceeded to continue yelling, you know, you're really becoming a bad boy! you don't want to read? you don't want to study? you want to grow up and become a bum?! oh god... i love the parenting skills, eh? and i was in my room, hearing all this, trying to decipher what my dad really meant, knowing that between his general lack of communication skills, his temper, and his lack of english vocabulary words, all that my dad can really think of is you're becoming a bad boy! if you're a good boy, you will get reward. if you are bad, you will get punished. there really wasn't any connection between reading a book, instead of watching tv, being studious and working hard, rather than being lazy and useless in society... it was just good or bad. you're a good boy if you study, you're a bad boy if you don't.
*sigh*
i hope my brother was able to figure out what my dad was yelling about. sometimes, just obeying will work and get you through life, but i know he's a good kid, just lazy and careless sometimes. but he's 13. he just wants to play video games all day long. and play drums. and i know he's smart. so i talk to him about things and how he needs to do well in order to succeed in school to try to appeal to his reason. cuz i know if i know why things are that way, i tend to follow better. and hopefully, the lessons stick to him too.
the yelling always made me feel bad, but i don't think it never taught me how to live my life. i think my parents expected that i knew what was right and wrong and how to behave in such a way. when i behaved "badly" (character-wise, not academically), i was yelled at, but there was never any clear instruction on how i was to behave. it only taught me that i'll get in trouble for this if i get caught. but they didn't teach me why it was wrong, why it was immoral. i think it led to my very late development in character. and then i would think of those few times when my dad actually told me why they wouldn't ever let me do anything... i was crying cuz they wouldn't let me go to junior prom and my dad calmly said you know why we're so protective of you? cuz you're so precious to us. there's only one of you, and you are very precious. god, it's making me tear up now. *sigh* they always mean well... just have a funny way of delivering it.
*sigh*
i hope my brother was able to figure out what my dad was yelling about. sometimes, just obeying will work and get you through life, but i know he's a good kid, just lazy and careless sometimes. but he's 13. he just wants to play video games all day long. and play drums. and i know he's smart. so i talk to him about things and how he needs to do well in order to succeed in school to try to appeal to his reason. cuz i know if i know why things are that way, i tend to follow better. and hopefully, the lessons stick to him too.
the yelling always made me feel bad, but i don't think it never taught me how to live my life. i think my parents expected that i knew what was right and wrong and how to behave in such a way. when i behaved "badly" (character-wise, not academically), i was yelled at, but there was never any clear instruction on how i was to behave. it only taught me that i'll get in trouble for this if i get caught. but they didn't teach me why it was wrong, why it was immoral. i think it led to my very late development in character. and then i would think of those few times when my dad actually told me why they wouldn't ever let me do anything... i was crying cuz they wouldn't let me go to junior prom and my dad calmly said you know why we're so protective of you? cuz you're so precious to us. there's only one of you, and you are very precious. god, it's making me tear up now. *sigh* they always mean well... just have a funny way of delivering it.
Monday, February 09, 2004
lazy blogger
been a lazy blogger lately. it's been busy at work, been busy outside of work. but to recap...
~ dinner at disneyland hotel's Hook's Pointe and dessert at the Wine Cellar for our anniversary. the best ever chocolate souffle!!! with some great wine on the side.
~ glenn's bday with bible study
~ scrapbooking and shadowbox-making for glenn's bday and our anniversary. thanx to everyone who wrote notes to make that album of thoughts happen. he really really loved it!
~ another busy but great weekend with heaven sent!
~ taxes are filed, yay!
~ went back to Hook's Pointe to get some more chocolate souffle... you sooo have to try this stuff! delicious!
~ dinner at disneyland hotel's Hook's Pointe and dessert at the Wine Cellar for our anniversary. the best ever chocolate souffle!!! with some great wine on the side.
~ glenn's bday with bible study
~ scrapbooking and shadowbox-making for glenn's bday and our anniversary. thanx to everyone who wrote notes to make that album of thoughts happen. he really really loved it!
~ another busy but great weekend with heaven sent!
~ taxes are filed, yay!
~ went back to Hook's Pointe to get some more chocolate souffle... you sooo have to try this stuff! delicious!
Monday, February 02, 2004
can you believe it's been a year?
it's gone awfully fast, now that we're here. i know there were many times when you wanted out. but i'm glad we're here today. it's been up and down, but so far a great ride! can't wait to see what's next! happy anniversary my glenn!
quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
