Monday, July 25, 2005
AND my values were not compromised this weekend at all. nor were there even any temptations. funny statement to say considering where i was eh? :)
lv highlights
i went to rosie's bachelorette party this weekend at vegas and it was quite an interesting bunch of people we were with. some of the highlights include:
~ suck for a buck
~ rosie making $10 from suck for a a buck
~ midget sucking for a buck
~ one girl running down the strip with another girl chasing after her. allegedly, there was some kicking. along with all the yelling and crying. dramarama man.
~ blow job (the shot of course!)
~ great mai tai by the pool
~ mina lost her id
~ mina found her id, yay!
~ seeing old college peeps (hi adrian!)
~ tired swollen feet
~ cracking up at hobbit-sized swollen feet
~ roulette with 50 cent chips at slots o' fun
there are stories galore, but for now, here are the pix. enjoy!
oh, by the way, i am very very very extremely thankful for my friends. i love you guys so much and am glad that you're all very considerate, caring people. i can't thank you enough for your friendship and just the kind of people you are. i am blessed.
~ suck for a buck
~ rosie making $10 from suck for a a buck
~ midget sucking for a buck
~ one girl running down the strip with another girl chasing after her. allegedly, there was some kicking. along with all the yelling and crying. dramarama man.
~ blow job (the shot of course!)
~ great mai tai by the pool
~ mina lost her id
~ mina found her id, yay!
~ seeing old college peeps (hi adrian!)
~ tired swollen feet
~ cracking up at hobbit-sized swollen feet
~ roulette with 50 cent chips at slots o' fun
there are stories galore, but for now, here are the pix. enjoy!
oh, by the way, i am very very very extremely thankful for my friends. i love you guys so much and am glad that you're all very considerate, caring people. i can't thank you enough for your friendship and just the kind of people you are. i am blessed.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
religion brings about the craziest conversations. i'm not versed enough about our catholic faith to debate things. especially when those who are trying to "share" their perspective is so rooted in the evidence of scripture. i fully know that our catholic faith is not just scripture but also tradition. things that i find make it so much fuller and makes me appreciate it all the more. but i can't explain these things to someone who is strongly protestant. i don't know how.
i wonder how my parents did it. cuz my dad was raised methodist, mom strongly catholic. and i know my dad doesn't agree with a lot of things that catholics do, but i also know that he sees the similiarities and basically focuses on our relationship with Christ. that's all that really matters, right?
i don't know who God has in store for me. i find that He's sending people my way that i have to justify my faith to. it challenges me and forces me to get to know my faith better. but i do hope this is a growth process. i'd rather marry someone who i don't have to argue religion with. but maybe it's one of those refinement by fire. i have a long way to go.
i wonder how my parents did it. cuz my dad was raised methodist, mom strongly catholic. and i know my dad doesn't agree with a lot of things that catholics do, but i also know that he sees the similiarities and basically focuses on our relationship with Christ. that's all that really matters, right?
i don't know who God has in store for me. i find that He's sending people my way that i have to justify my faith to. it challenges me and forces me to get to know my faith better. but i do hope this is a growth process. i'd rather marry someone who i don't have to argue religion with. but maybe it's one of those refinement by fire. i have a long way to go.
crackpots!
my aunt is the source of my email forwards. some are good, most i delete. this was a really good one. enjoy!
A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of he pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of he long walk from the stream to the master's house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do. After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you." "Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?" "I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said. The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path." Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure. The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."
Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them. There is a lot of good out there. There is a lot of good in you!
Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape. Remember to appreciate all the different people in your life! Or as I like to think of it-if it hadn't been for the crackpots in my life, it would have been pretty boring and not so interesting...
A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of he pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of he long walk from the stream to the master's house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do. After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you." "Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?" "I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said. The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path." Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure. The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."
Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them. There is a lot of good out there. There is a lot of good in you!
Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape. Remember to appreciate all the different people in your life! Or as I like to think of it-if it hadn't been for the crackpots in my life, it would have been pretty boring and not so interesting...
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
and another one
i feel so lazy just doing these questionnaires instead of really blogging. but i guess these take just as much effort if not more. sooo... another insight into me:
Three names you go by (my family has lots of nicknames for people so i have more than 3):
1. dorothy
2. dorothee
3. tootsie
4. pet
5. chay
6. pechay
7. chay-girl
8. tongkwang
9. ate (older sister/cousin/friend in tagalog)
10. ate toots
11. auntie tootsie (for cousins who are confused as to who i am in relation to them)
Three screen names you have had:
1. aoedorothee
2. aphihunee
3. that's all
Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. my derriere
2. my smile
3. the softness of my skin
Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. how my eyes disappear when i'm laughing in pictures
2. my breastesses... or lack thereof
3. how my chest tightens up when i'm stressed out, like i'm having a mini heart attack
Three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. 1/16 Chinese i think
3. some sort of spanish from my last name
Three things that scare you:
1. loneliness
2. not being enough
3. failure
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. shower
2. prayer
3. checking email
Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. norah jones
2. renee olstead (this girl's only 16 and she has such a soulful mature voice!)
3. keahiwai
Three of your favorite songs:
1. on a slow boat to china, renee olstead
2. i'll cover you, rent soundtrack (i like the part that goes, "with a thousand sweet kisses, i'll cover you")
3. waikiki, local girls album, keahiwai
Three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. responsibility
3. laughter & good conversation (i cheat like cici)
Three lies and truths in no particular order:
1. i was born in the states
2. i stress myself out
3. i trust easily
4. my favorite color is blue
5. i cook
6. i'm a cat lover
Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. their gentle touch
2. their smile and how it can make you melt and giddy at the same time
3. i find that i like it these days when they do that winking thing. depends on who tho, cuz some have that sleazy undertone.
Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. wedding consulting and creating wedding items
2. trying new restaurants (gets expensive tho)
3. plucking armpit, leg, and pubic hairs (yea i kinda like doing this too cici)
Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. go home
2. rest my eyes
3. swim in the ocean
Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. doctor. so glad that didn't work out.
2. teacher. glad it's not my profession, but i think i'll be teaching sometime in the future. at least part time as i work with the youth group.
3. counselor. i really wouldn't mind pursuing this. but i don't really want to go back to school.
4. wedding planner/consultant. working on this. hopefully i'll actually start getting paid for the work that i love doing.
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. hawaii
2. new york
3. italy
Three kids’ names you like:
1. jonathan. means gift of god. it's the male equivalent to my name. my parents were gonna name me jonathan cuz they thought i was a boy. but i came out a girl so they took the girl equivalent.
2. reina, but i think i'd spell it rheina to be different. she'd also be mary rheina, cuz i wanna continue the whole mary tradition in my family.
3. sarah, nice and simple, pretty. i dunno if mary sarah goes tho.
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. skydiving
2. get married
3. know that my husband and i raised good kids who will make the world a better place
Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i enjoy a good beer now and again
2. my room is a horrid mess
3. i am a horndog (yes, i stole again)
Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i'm such a sap nowadays, i cried at the series finale of boy meets world for goodness' sake!
2. i really like lovey dovey mushy cuddly time
3. i can be really moody, esp at that time of the month
Three celeb crushes:
1. keith ledger
2. the guy from the movie unfaithful
3. brad pitt for lack of a better answer
Now it's your turn! FOUR people that I would like to see take this quiz now:
1. Dana
2. Noreen
3. Francia
4. Herman
Three names you go by (my family has lots of nicknames for people so i have more than 3):
1. dorothy
2. dorothee
3. tootsie
4. pet
5. chay
6. pechay
7. chay-girl
8. tongkwang
9. ate (older sister/cousin/friend in tagalog)
10. ate toots
11. auntie tootsie (for cousins who are confused as to who i am in relation to them)
Three screen names you have had:
1. aoedorothee
2. aphihunee
3. that's all
Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. my derriere
2. my smile
3. the softness of my skin
Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. how my eyes disappear when i'm laughing in pictures
2. my breastesses... or lack thereof
3. how my chest tightens up when i'm stressed out, like i'm having a mini heart attack
Three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. 1/16 Chinese i think
3. some sort of spanish from my last name
Three things that scare you:
1. loneliness
2. not being enough
3. failure
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. shower
2. prayer
3. checking email
Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. norah jones
2. renee olstead (this girl's only 16 and she has such a soulful mature voice!)
3. keahiwai
Three of your favorite songs:
1. on a slow boat to china, renee olstead
2. i'll cover you, rent soundtrack (i like the part that goes, "with a thousand sweet kisses, i'll cover you")
3. waikiki, local girls album, keahiwai
Three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. responsibility
3. laughter & good conversation (i cheat like cici)
Three lies and truths in no particular order:
1. i was born in the states
2. i stress myself out
3. i trust easily
4. my favorite color is blue
5. i cook
6. i'm a cat lover
Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. their gentle touch
2. their smile and how it can make you melt and giddy at the same time
3. i find that i like it these days when they do that winking thing. depends on who tho, cuz some have that sleazy undertone.
Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. wedding consulting and creating wedding items
2. trying new restaurants (gets expensive tho)
3. plucking armpit, leg, and pubic hairs (yea i kinda like doing this too cici)
Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. go home
2. rest my eyes
3. swim in the ocean
Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. doctor. so glad that didn't work out.
2. teacher. glad it's not my profession, but i think i'll be teaching sometime in the future. at least part time as i work with the youth group.
3. counselor. i really wouldn't mind pursuing this. but i don't really want to go back to school.
4. wedding planner/consultant. working on this. hopefully i'll actually start getting paid for the work that i love doing.
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. hawaii
2. new york
3. italy
Three kids’ names you like:
1. jonathan. means gift of god. it's the male equivalent to my name. my parents were gonna name me jonathan cuz they thought i was a boy. but i came out a girl so they took the girl equivalent.
2. reina, but i think i'd spell it rheina to be different. she'd also be mary rheina, cuz i wanna continue the whole mary tradition in my family.
3. sarah, nice and simple, pretty. i dunno if mary sarah goes tho.
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. skydiving
2. get married
3. know that my husband and i raised good kids who will make the world a better place
Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i enjoy a good beer now and again
2. my room is a horrid mess
3. i am a horndog (yes, i stole again)
Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i'm such a sap nowadays, i cried at the series finale of boy meets world for goodness' sake!
2. i really like lovey dovey mushy cuddly time
3. i can be really moody, esp at that time of the month
Three celeb crushes:
1. keith ledger
2. the guy from the movie unfaithful
3. brad pitt for lack of a better answer
Now it's your turn! FOUR people that I would like to see take this quiz now:
1. Dana
2. Noreen
3. Francia
4. Herman
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Drexel Elthea S. Miravite
my new lil cousin has arrived! well, she arrived over 2 weeks ago on june 30, 2005. the pix are just late. she's my 38th first cousin just on my mother's side!
enjoy the pix here!
enjoy the pix here!
people just suck sometimes
oh that's it. i was gonna vent, then i read what i just posted right below. and all i'm gonna say is that people just suck sometimes. there are plenty of things people don't understand and maybe they ought to just get to know what they're making judgments on before they do. *sigh*
borrowing from others
courtesy of noreen:
INDIVIDUALISM
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self centered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy over night.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today people will often forget tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your individualism.
It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Theresa
true dat.
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courtesy of marianne:
"You know what hour it is. This is the time to awake, for our salvation is now nearer than when we first believed; the night is almost over and the day is at hand. Let us discard, therefore, everything that belongs to darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. As we live in full light of day, let us behave with decency; no banquets with drunkenness, no prostitution or vices, no fighting or jealousy. Put on, rather, the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not be led by the will of the flesh nor follow its desires." (Rom 13:11-14)
sometimes we stumble, sometimes we know we're about to stumble and we can catch ourselves but we choose not to. sometimes we get complacent and comfortable and figure, oh He'll forgive us anyway. it'll be okay. this passage above reminds us that we need to be on our toes. though He does forgive us always, we need to try harder, to do better, to be better followers and soldiers of Christ. *sigh* sorry, Lord for my shortcomings... for not stopping when i should, for not doing when i should. for knowing better, but not acting upon it. i'm sorry i get lazy and complacent. please give me the spiritual strength to overcome my evil urges.
speaking of evil, the bible study crew were discussing evil last sunday. and someone felt like they have such evil tendencies. it's so funny that she mentioned that cuz i was totally praying that in church, thinking that I have such evil tendencies too. i think we all have that, but different kinds of evil. some have selfishness, others have lust, others have gluttony... the seven deadly sins, you know? i dunno how we get rid of the evil in our hearts. prayer i suppose. the methodical part of me wants to say that it's like a 12 step aa program, where first you need to recognize and acknowledge that you have that problem, then take steps to erradicate it out of you. but i know it isn't that simple. there's a battle for our souls and sometimes i feel it tugging. then it's my choice. just sometimes, i choose the wrong side. i let the evil take over me. and that's when i feel bad, cuz i know better. and i know i could've done better. so the next time, i try harder to not choose evil. i like our lil bible study community as well as certain other people in my life. they keep me accountable, out of trouble, out of evil. thank goodness... cuz i'm not strong enough to keep myself straight. thanx you guys.
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self centered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy over night.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today people will often forget tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your individualism.
It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Theresa
true dat.
courtesy of marianne:
"You know what hour it is. This is the time to awake, for our salvation is now nearer than when we first believed; the night is almost over and the day is at hand. Let us discard, therefore, everything that belongs to darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. As we live in full light of day, let us behave with decency; no banquets with drunkenness, no prostitution or vices, no fighting or jealousy. Put on, rather, the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not be led by the will of the flesh nor follow its desires." (Rom 13:11-14)
sometimes we stumble, sometimes we know we're about to stumble and we can catch ourselves but we choose not to. sometimes we get complacent and comfortable and figure, oh He'll forgive us anyway. it'll be okay. this passage above reminds us that we need to be on our toes. though He does forgive us always, we need to try harder, to do better, to be better followers and soldiers of Christ. *sigh* sorry, Lord for my shortcomings... for not stopping when i should, for not doing when i should. for knowing better, but not acting upon it. i'm sorry i get lazy and complacent. please give me the spiritual strength to overcome my evil urges.
speaking of evil, the bible study crew were discussing evil last sunday. and someone felt like they have such evil tendencies. it's so funny that she mentioned that cuz i was totally praying that in church, thinking that I have such evil tendencies too. i think we all have that, but different kinds of evil. some have selfishness, others have lust, others have gluttony... the seven deadly sins, you know? i dunno how we get rid of the evil in our hearts. prayer i suppose. the methodical part of me wants to say that it's like a 12 step aa program, where first you need to recognize and acknowledge that you have that problem, then take steps to erradicate it out of you. but i know it isn't that simple. there's a battle for our souls and sometimes i feel it tugging. then it's my choice. just sometimes, i choose the wrong side. i let the evil take over me. and that's when i feel bad, cuz i know better. and i know i could've done better. so the next time, i try harder to not choose evil. i like our lil bible study community as well as certain other people in my life. they keep me accountable, out of trouble, out of evil. thank goodness... cuz i'm not strong enough to keep myself straight. thanx you guys.
Monday, July 18, 2005
me as a robot
courtesy of cici:
soo funny! troubleshooting and hazardous yelling! it does describe me!
you can find your own cyborg name here. enjoy!
soo funny! troubleshooting and hazardous yelling! it does describe me!
you can find your own cyborg name here. enjoy!
old crushes, old friends, and a new musical!
when i was like 9 or 10 years old, i had this crush on a boy. he was older; a mature 11 or 12. hahah! i just found out that he recently got married and it's so funny how it seriously left me distraught! he actually grew up to be quite a handsome, nice guy. good job, great family. and i just felt like, crap, wasn't he just asking me out for coffee a lil while ago? well, that coffee invitation was actually more like 3 years ago, right at the time when i was just starting another relationship. just not meant to be, i suppose. God has larger plans anyway.
the past couple of weekends have just been fabulous! it's been full of birthday parties for all the july babies. i swear, oct is just a month to make them. goodness!
2 weekends ago, the best part was the my 'n toots night. my best friend and i had a lil sleepover at her apt cuz her new hubby was out of town. it was a great night of sharing and continuing to build what we had started with all the wedding planning hangouts. sometimes i feel like it's such a vulnerable relationship. it's quite high maintenance and if we don't connect for a long time, it's soo much harder to start back up. i was reading a book about friendships one time and it contrasted friends and acquaintances. with acquaintainces, you talk of events, with friends, you talk of feelings. that weekend, when we finally shut off the computer and tv, we talked of feelings. it was a really nice night of bonding. we talked until the sun was coming up. i love that girl. as strange as our "best friendship" seems to people, i treasure her and our friendship. so we resolved to have a weekly my 'n toots night. i like it. it's so cute. last wednesday, we went for crepes, just randomly and had a nice talk. and this week, we're going to vegas for another friend's bachelorette party. there are moments here and there, when i'll flash-forward to our future together. i see me at her bedside as she's having her first baby. and helping her with her kids... and lending a shoulder when one of our parents pass away... dangit, *choked up*. she's my lifelong friend and i love her.
i saw wicked the musical last weekend too. oh my god, it was sooo good!!!! i absolutely loved it! thanx to norman's coworker who got us FREE tickets! they were really good seats too! center mezzanine row G in the pantages theatre. the company was great, the musical was great. thanx for the invite normy!
life has been quite dandy lately. i hesitate to say such things sometimes, cuz i don't wanna jinx it. but really, it's been quite lovely. it's good to reconnect with old friends, make some friends out of some acquaintances, strengthen current bonds, and simple things, like breakfast with my parents has been really refreshingly wonderful. bible study last night had really good discussions too. it's one of those where we talked about everything under the sun. and that lil community really helps me with my journey. i find that i'm quite content with my life and my life in my faith. i fell asleep just talking to Him last night, feeling just in love with Him. sometimes, i'll feel lonely in my bed, wanting someone to hold me. and last night, He did. it was the most comforting feeling ever. can't beat that. amen.
the past couple of weekends have just been fabulous! it's been full of birthday parties for all the july babies. i swear, oct is just a month to make them. goodness!
2 weekends ago, the best part was the my 'n toots night. my best friend and i had a lil sleepover at her apt cuz her new hubby was out of town. it was a great night of sharing and continuing to build what we had started with all the wedding planning hangouts. sometimes i feel like it's such a vulnerable relationship. it's quite high maintenance and if we don't connect for a long time, it's soo much harder to start back up. i was reading a book about friendships one time and it contrasted friends and acquaintances. with acquaintainces, you talk of events, with friends, you talk of feelings. that weekend, when we finally shut off the computer and tv, we talked of feelings. it was a really nice night of bonding. we talked until the sun was coming up. i love that girl. as strange as our "best friendship" seems to people, i treasure her and our friendship. so we resolved to have a weekly my 'n toots night. i like it. it's so cute. last wednesday, we went for crepes, just randomly and had a nice talk. and this week, we're going to vegas for another friend's bachelorette party. there are moments here and there, when i'll flash-forward to our future together. i see me at her bedside as she's having her first baby. and helping her with her kids... and lending a shoulder when one of our parents pass away... dangit, *choked up*. she's my lifelong friend and i love her.
i saw wicked the musical last weekend too. oh my god, it was sooo good!!!! i absolutely loved it! thanx to norman's coworker who got us FREE tickets! they were really good seats too! center mezzanine row G in the pantages theatre. the company was great, the musical was great. thanx for the invite normy!
life has been quite dandy lately. i hesitate to say such things sometimes, cuz i don't wanna jinx it. but really, it's been quite lovely. it's good to reconnect with old friends, make some friends out of some acquaintances, strengthen current bonds, and simple things, like breakfast with my parents has been really refreshingly wonderful. bible study last night had really good discussions too. it's one of those where we talked about everything under the sun. and that lil community really helps me with my journey. i find that i'm quite content with my life and my life in my faith. i fell asleep just talking to Him last night, feeling just in love with Him. sometimes, i'll feel lonely in my bed, wanting someone to hold me. and last night, He did. it was the most comforting feeling ever. can't beat that. amen.
Friday, July 15, 2005
i liked this from cici
have you ever?
(x) snuck out
( ) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) almost got arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
(x) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from myspace
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) robbed someoone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident
( )had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
( ) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( ) had sex in a park
(x) had a dream that you married/kissed/had sex with someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex's clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts/spirits
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) french braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out
i had an interesting conversation based upon the questions in this list. we both especially cracked up at humped by a monkey. i wanna find someone who has that crossed off.
(x) snuck out
( ) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) almost got arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
(x) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from myspace
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) robbed someoone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident
( )had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
( ) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( ) had sex in a park
(x) had a dream that you married/kissed/had sex with someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex's clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts/spirits
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) french braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out
i had an interesting conversation based upon the questions in this list. we both especially cracked up at humped by a monkey. i wanna find someone who has that crossed off.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
bittersweet
so i got out of the world youth day trip. the organizer called me today to let me know that the travel agent is able to change the names on the tickets that were already booked. the charge would be $300 for this, plus i'd forfeit the travel insurance that i had purchased. total damage for cancellation would be $470. so yay, right? that was my initial reaction to the news. i had told myself that i was willing to shell out max of $500-700 to cancel this trip and if it was more, then i'm going. well, God's so good, he brought it to just under the limit i had set for myself. i was ecstatic at the news.
He's so funny. i try so hard to discern what He wants of me and sometimes i want it to be straight-forward and to make it easy to decide. so i was thinking, okay, Lord, wherever you want me, i'll go there. i'll just follow whatever plan you lead me toward. so when the organizer told me earlier that i'd lose like half my money, i settled into it-that i was going on this trip. so i accepted it and was okay with it. like i said before, maybe He's got a larger plan, so who am i to interfere with it? and then today, when i got this news, well shoot, i jumped at it of course! it is what i want. so i got my way... but am i happy with this? i initially was. but as the day went on, and i think about it more, i feel like i didn't quite make the right choice. i mean, i got what i wanted. but i don't know that it's where He wants me to be. i was thinking at first that maybe He just wanted to see me surrender myself to Him and His will, to serve without hesitation. but all the while, He was really going to give me what I want after all. so, cool, right? but, what if He wanted to see me make that choice for myself? what if he presented me with an out to see if i'd still choose to serve Him and these kids? if that's the test, then i obviously failed.
i feel like i took the easy road out. that i didn't give of myself generously. i've been so annoyed at the process and saw it all as one large obligation. and i counted the costs, rather than giving freely. so often i listen to the song in my head ~ the Prayer for Generosity. and today, i feel like i didn't live it.
Teach me to be generous
Teach me to serve you as I should
To give and not to count the cost
To fight and not to heed the wounds
To toil and not to seek for rest
To labor and ask not for reward
Save that of knowing that I do
Your most holy will.
Days has taught me this lesson, but maybe i missed the lesson during this crossroad. maybe i'm supposed to broaden my service and get out of my comfort zone. and this time, i failed to recognize it, i failed to step up.
Monday, July 11, 2005
i was trying to get out of the world youth day trip. i'm really negative about it. mostly because of what i'm gonna be missing. so i haven't been looking forward to it at all. i called our organizer to talk to the travel agent to see what the penalties would be to cancel. it's like $1400. i'm not willing to lose that much. so i'm going. but i'm still annoyed at it all.
so my mom called me to find out my vote on what kind of hat (bucket, like fisherman's hat, visor, or baseball) the parents should buy in order to make the group more visible and easier to keep track of. i had already seen the email going around and was annoyed at it all. and i told her, i'm not a pilgrim, i'm a chaperone. if they wanted me to vote, i vote for none of the above. and if they buy one for me, i wouldn't wear it anyway. i was kind of a b*tch about it and i feel bad that i snapped at my mom for it. she just said, oh okay, bye. she's so good at dealing with us brats.
so yea, i'm going. i'm sure there's some reason why He needs me to go. i know it's something about sacrificing what i want to make room for Him. and ultimately surrendering my life and my decisions to Him and what He needs of me. yes, i'm willing. i just gotta stop looking back at what i'm missing. or i'll turn into a pillar of salt like Lot's wife. *sigh*
so my mom called me to find out my vote on what kind of hat (bucket, like fisherman's hat, visor, or baseball) the parents should buy in order to make the group more visible and easier to keep track of. i had already seen the email going around and was annoyed at it all. and i told her, i'm not a pilgrim, i'm a chaperone. if they wanted me to vote, i vote for none of the above. and if they buy one for me, i wouldn't wear it anyway. i was kind of a b*tch about it and i feel bad that i snapped at my mom for it. she just said, oh okay, bye. she's so good at dealing with us brats.
so yea, i'm going. i'm sure there's some reason why He needs me to go. i know it's something about sacrificing what i want to make room for Him. and ultimately surrendering my life and my decisions to Him and what He needs of me. yes, i'm willing. i just gotta stop looking back at what i'm missing. or i'll turn into a pillar of salt like Lot's wife. *sigh*
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
finally!
okay, here we go, pix of mina and danny's wedding from different sources:
mama's camera
kay's camera
camille's camera
noreen's camera
enjoy!
mama's camera
kay's camera
camille's camera
noreen's camera
enjoy!
star wars quoting
i'm such a geek... feel free to laugh at my geekiness.
yesterday, my coworker was having quite a crisis. her daughter's getting married and is having very many life changes in addition to that. she's just graduated from nursing school and has had lots of schedule changes, as well as responsibility changes and will soon be on her own at a new hospital. so on top of all this, her fiance is pressuring her to make yet another huge change- to move in with him at his house. she doesn't want to add any further stress on herself so she really doesn't want to quite yet, more for the practical sense of it, not for any emotional hesitation or anything. well, he thinks it's because she lets her parents rule her life and gave her an ultimatum saying, "if you're not ready to move in with me now, then you're just not ready to get married." my coworker was telling me all this and what does dorothy say to that?
"not to quote star wars, but only the sith deal in absolutes!"
hahahah, when it escaped my mouth, i thought to myself... did i really just quote star wars?! look what you've done to me artemus.
yesterday, my coworker was having quite a crisis. her daughter's getting married and is having very many life changes in addition to that. she's just graduated from nursing school and has had lots of schedule changes, as well as responsibility changes and will soon be on her own at a new hospital. so on top of all this, her fiance is pressuring her to make yet another huge change- to move in with him at his house. she doesn't want to add any further stress on herself so she really doesn't want to quite yet, more for the practical sense of it, not for any emotional hesitation or anything. well, he thinks it's because she lets her parents rule her life and gave her an ultimatum saying, "if you're not ready to move in with me now, then you're just not ready to get married." my coworker was telling me all this and what does dorothy say to that?
hahahah, when it escaped my mouth, i thought to myself... did i really just quote star wars?! look what you've done to me artemus.
quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
