Tuesday, March 30, 2004
happy hour
some of us are heading up to happy hour tonight at bj's. happy hour is from 4-7, but come after work, whenever that may be! there's 1/2 off mini pizzas & $2 off appetizers, and drink specials too! haven't seen some of you folk in a long while, so come! i'll be there 6:30ish. hope to see you there!
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
my poor achin back!
oh my freakin goodness! my right back area under the shoulder blade hurts like a momma! i dunno anymore if it was the accident a couple weeks ago or the excessive cleaning this past weekend or that one bad night's sleep when i woke up with this back pain. goodness it hurts! and it's not going away. i was thinking it'll get better, but it's not. on top of that i've got this rash in the same exact area and i can't tell anymore if it hurts cuz of the rash or b/c of the muscle pain. at times, kumikirot siya (it twitches) and sends these jolts of sharp pain throughout my ribcage to the front of my chest, right under my bra line. so my ribs hurt too. i need to go the chiropractor. my entire back is stiff, and i can't even carry my bag on my right shoulder anymore. it's even getting uncomfortable wearing heels. aughhh!
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
a child's version of birth
another fabulous email:
THE MIDDLE WIFE
(by an Anonymous Second-Grade Teacher)
I've been teaching now for about fifteen years. I have two kids myself,
but the best birth story I know is the one I saw in my own second-grade
classroom a few years back. When I was a kid, I loved show-and-tell. So
I always have a few sessions with my students. It helps them get over
shyness. Usually, show-and-tell is pretty tame. Kids bring in pet
turtles, model airplanes, pictures of fish they catch, stuff like that.
And I never, ever place any boundaries or limitations on them. If they
want to lug it to school and talk about it, they're welcome.
Well, one day this little girl, Erica, a very bright, very outgoing kid,
takes her turn and waddles up to the front of the class with a pillow
stuffed under her sweater. She holds up a snapshot of an infant.
"Hi everyone. This is Luke, my baby brother, and I'm going to tell you
about his birthday... First, Mom and Dad made him as a symbol of their
love, and then Dad put a seed in my Mom's stomach, and Luke grew in
there.
He ate for nine months through an Umbrella-Cord."
She's standing there with her hands on the pillow, and I'm trying not to
laugh and wishing I had my camcorder with me. The kids are watching her
in amazement.
"Then, about two Saturdays ago, my Mom starts saying and going, 'Oh, oh,
oh!'"
Erica puts a hand behind her back and groans.
"She walked around the house for, like an hour, 'Oh, oh, oh!'"
Now the kid's doing this hysterical duck walk, holding her back and
groaning.
"So my Dad called the Middle Wife. She delivers babies, but she doesn't
have a sign on her car like the Domino's man....They got my Mom to lie
down in bed like this."
Erica lies down with her back against the wall.
"And then, POP! My Mom had this bag of water she kept in there in case
he got thirsty, and it just blew up and spilled all over the bed, like
psshhheew!"
This kid has her legs spread wide and with her little hands she's miming
water flowing away. It was too much!
"Then the Middle Wife starts saying 'Push, push, and breathe, breathe.'
They started counting, but never even got past ten. Then, all of a
sudden, out comes my brother. He was covered in yucky stuff, and they
said it was from Mom's Play-Center, so there must be
a lot of stuff inside there."
Then Erica stood up, took a big theatrical bow and returned to her seat.
I'm sure I applauded the loudest!
Ever since then, if it's show-and-tell day, I bring my camcorder,
just in case another Erica comes along.
life is meant to be lived . . . enjoy & laugh, and see things as children do. they have the most wonderful perspective!
THE MIDDLE WIFE
(by an Anonymous Second-Grade Teacher)
I've been teaching now for about fifteen years. I have two kids myself,
but the best birth story I know is the one I saw in my own second-grade
classroom a few years back. When I was a kid, I loved show-and-tell. So
I always have a few sessions with my students. It helps them get over
shyness. Usually, show-and-tell is pretty tame. Kids bring in pet
turtles, model airplanes, pictures of fish they catch, stuff like that.
And I never, ever place any boundaries or limitations on them. If they
want to lug it to school and talk about it, they're welcome.
Well, one day this little girl, Erica, a very bright, very outgoing kid,
takes her turn and waddles up to the front of the class with a pillow
stuffed under her sweater. She holds up a snapshot of an infant.
"Hi everyone. This is Luke, my baby brother, and I'm going to tell you
about his birthday... First, Mom and Dad made him as a symbol of their
love, and then Dad put a seed in my Mom's stomach, and Luke grew in
there.
He ate for nine months through an Umbrella-Cord."
She's standing there with her hands on the pillow, and I'm trying not to
laugh and wishing I had my camcorder with me. The kids are watching her
in amazement.
"Then, about two Saturdays ago, my Mom starts saying and going, 'Oh, oh,
oh!'"
Erica puts a hand behind her back and groans.
"She walked around the house for, like an hour, 'Oh, oh, oh!'"
Now the kid's doing this hysterical duck walk, holding her back and
groaning.
"So my Dad called the Middle Wife. She delivers babies, but she doesn't
have a sign on her car like the Domino's man....They got my Mom to lie
down in bed like this."
Erica lies down with her back against the wall.
"And then, POP! My Mom had this bag of water she kept in there in case
he got thirsty, and it just blew up and spilled all over the bed, like
psshhheew!"
This kid has her legs spread wide and with her little hands she's miming
water flowing away. It was too much!
"Then the Middle Wife starts saying 'Push, push, and breathe, breathe.'
They started counting, but never even got past ten. Then, all of a
sudden, out comes my brother. He was covered in yucky stuff, and they
said it was from Mom's Play-Center, so there must be
a lot of stuff inside there."
Then Erica stood up, took a big theatrical bow and returned to her seat.
I'm sure I applauded the loudest!
Ever since then, if it's show-and-tell day, I bring my camcorder,
just in case another Erica comes along.
life is meant to be lived . . . enjoy & laugh, and see things as children do. they have the most wonderful perspective!
Monday, March 22, 2004
i met Him all weekend long
spent the weekend up in big bear with the sacred heart sisters. glenn and i volunteered to help with a confirmation retreat. not too hard to see God in that kind of environment. but some were surprising too.
some highlights:
~ napping on a rock surrounded by snow, a light breeze, sunshine... and a ton of kids running around having a snowball fight in the distance
~ i gave a talk on the sacrament of reconciliation. i suck at talks, but this group was small (13 kids) and it was not so bad. i used the word extrapolate and glenn gave me constructive criticism afterward, saying not to use big words to the kids... or was it for him?
~ playing a game that required me to run back and forth (i don't work out!). by the end of the game, the kids were just straight pulling me, while my chest heaved up and down desperate for some oxygen!
~ the kids were nervous about confessing and the "worst" kids ended up volunteering to go last. they were quite reluctant about it actually and the sisters had to explain why the blessing they receive afterward is so much greater than the fear of it. in the end, they went! and both cried. i think it really touched them. it was especially touching to see joey wiping off tears afterward. it seemed like he had a lot weighing down his heart.
~ glenn's noisemaking and joey's cracking up because of it... at the most inappropriate time of the weekend. but sister jennifer was very good at not condemning. she was very kind about it actually.
~ talking to the girls in the evening about their faith and answering their questions. i knew the answers surprisingly!
~ bacon for breakfast!
~ gifts of the holy spirit talk... there's one called reverence. it talks of reverence to the Father and being able to defend Him and always standing up for Him. i extrapolated it to the important people in my life. glenn always says, i'm supposed to be on his side, but never am. i'm going to work on that. i will revere him too.
~ the best part was during the closing exercise. we were to answer the following questions:
what did you learn about God or what thought did you reinforce?
where did you see God this weekend?
joey had a friend who passed away a year ago and he has never dreamt of him at all. joey explained that he was not religious at all and wasn't really sure there was a God when he died. he was also the kind of kid who was just always dirty. joey went on to say that throughout the retreat and the past 2 years of confirmation, he still really wasn't very convinced that there is a God. and saturday night, joey dreamt of his friend. his friend was all cleaned up, healthy, and his friend told him, joey, i'm okay now. don't worry about me. and joey, He's real. He really is. and joey said he woke up laughing. he said, i learned this weekend, that He's real. He really is. he was tearing up as he was explaining all this and it was really beautiful to see someone's faith formation becoming so real. i cried too. it was beautiful.
we went up there to serve, to nourish other people's faith, to share our stories to help strengthen other kids. we came away with ourselves being nourished as well. we heard other's stories and strengthened our faith. you really do receive all that you give. and even more. luvulord!
some highlights:
~ napping on a rock surrounded by snow, a light breeze, sunshine... and a ton of kids running around having a snowball fight in the distance
~ i gave a talk on the sacrament of reconciliation. i suck at talks, but this group was small (13 kids) and it was not so bad. i used the word extrapolate and glenn gave me constructive criticism afterward, saying not to use big words to the kids... or was it for him?
~ playing a game that required me to run back and forth (i don't work out!). by the end of the game, the kids were just straight pulling me, while my chest heaved up and down desperate for some oxygen!
~ the kids were nervous about confessing and the "worst" kids ended up volunteering to go last. they were quite reluctant about it actually and the sisters had to explain why the blessing they receive afterward is so much greater than the fear of it. in the end, they went! and both cried. i think it really touched them. it was especially touching to see joey wiping off tears afterward. it seemed like he had a lot weighing down his heart.
~ glenn's noisemaking and joey's cracking up because of it... at the most inappropriate time of the weekend. but sister jennifer was very good at not condemning. she was very kind about it actually.
~ talking to the girls in the evening about their faith and answering their questions. i knew the answers surprisingly!
~ bacon for breakfast!
~ gifts of the holy spirit talk... there's one called reverence. it talks of reverence to the Father and being able to defend Him and always standing up for Him. i extrapolated it to the important people in my life. glenn always says, i'm supposed to be on his side, but never am. i'm going to work on that. i will revere him too.
~ the best part was during the closing exercise. we were to answer the following questions:
what did you learn about God or what thought did you reinforce?
where did you see God this weekend?
joey had a friend who passed away a year ago and he has never dreamt of him at all. joey explained that he was not religious at all and wasn't really sure there was a God when he died. he was also the kind of kid who was just always dirty. joey went on to say that throughout the retreat and the past 2 years of confirmation, he still really wasn't very convinced that there is a God. and saturday night, joey dreamt of his friend. his friend was all cleaned up, healthy, and his friend told him, joey, i'm okay now. don't worry about me. and joey, He's real. He really is. and joey said he woke up laughing. he said, i learned this weekend, that He's real. He really is. he was tearing up as he was explaining all this and it was really beautiful to see someone's faith formation becoming so real. i cried too. it was beautiful.
we went up there to serve, to nourish other people's faith, to share our stories to help strengthen other kids. we came away with ourselves being nourished as well. we heard other's stories and strengthened our faith. you really do receive all that you give. and even more. luvulord!
Friday, March 19, 2004
what an absolute blessing!!!
omg, the Lord is so super duper good, i can't believe it sometimes! my cousins are here from the philippines, just arrived last week. they're here on "vacation" but we're hoping that they'll find something here so that they can settle and start a life here with us. one is a teacher, another graduated with communications and is hoping to go into advertising (but can really do anything), and the other is in computers. we just had a welcome reunion party last saturday and we we're talking to them about plans and such things. i was feeling kind of discouraged, cuz the teacher already has a job lined up and was supposed to go back in april to do paperwork. i was thinking that there was no way they'd be able to find a job so quickly! plus, they'd have to find a company to sponsor them on top of finding the job! but i got this awesome email this morning from my aunt:
Hello Family,
Just wanted to share the good news that ... has been accepted in a position at ... in Fullerton, CA starting on Monday, March 22, 2004.
She will be sponsored by the school and after a year may be sent to Montessori training paid for by the school.
She just recently graduated from Miriam College and is excited to be working in the field she has her degree in.
Please join me in congratulating her and wishing her well as she embarks on this new phase in her life.
More importantly, please join me in thanking HIM for presenting this wonderful opportunity to her.
i was so super amazed and shocked at how quickly it happened. i found out from talking to my uncle that it was through one of our friends from days that my cousin got this position. and i thanked God for this group again.
i'm working on my other cousin who's in computers. at first i was a lil discouraged about that too, cuz crap, the market sux for IT peeps these days. then i saw jongo's post. i was still not so hopeful, cuz i thought my cousin does hardware stuff. but i called my other aunt just in case and when i described what was needed, she said, oh i think that's exactly what it says on his resume! let me fax it to you! oh my gosh, i hope this totally works out for them!
Hello Family,
Just wanted to share the good news that ... has been accepted in a position at ... in Fullerton, CA starting on Monday, March 22, 2004.
She will be sponsored by the school and after a year may be sent to Montessori training paid for by the school.
She just recently graduated from Miriam College and is excited to be working in the field she has her degree in.
Please join me in congratulating her and wishing her well as she embarks on this new phase in her life.
More importantly, please join me in thanking HIM for presenting this wonderful opportunity to her.
i was so super amazed and shocked at how quickly it happened. i found out from talking to my uncle that it was through one of our friends from days that my cousin got this position. and i thanked God for this group again.
i'm working on my other cousin who's in computers. at first i was a lil discouraged about that too, cuz crap, the market sux for IT peeps these days. then i saw jongo's post. i was still not so hopeful, cuz i thought my cousin does hardware stuff. but i called my other aunt just in case and when i described what was needed, she said, oh i think that's exactly what it says on his resume! let me fax it to you! oh my gosh, i hope this totally works out for them!
Thursday, March 18, 2004
casual day
i forgot that today & tomorrow is spring cleaning day at the office and we're allowed to wear casual dress- tee shirts, jeans are acceptable. wear comfortable shoes, not sandals. no shorts. aughh, i would have soo appreciated wearing sneaks today. my feet are still hurting from shoes that i love that i wore yesterday, but they hurt me now for some reason. and i was staring at my closet for the longest time too, trying to figure out what to wear. if i remembered it was casual day, my feet would be so much happier and it wouldn't have taken so long to pick out an outfit. well, at least i have a 2nd chance tomorrow.
THE ANT AND THE CONTACT LENS
Brenda was a young woman who was invited to go rock climbing. Although she was scared to death, she went with her group to a tremendous granite cliff. In spite of her fear, she put on the gear, took a hold on the rope, and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got to a ledge where she could take a breather.
As she was hanging on there, the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out her contact lens. Here she is on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below her and hundreds of feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and looked, hoping it had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there. So here she was, far from home, her sight now blurry.
She was desperate and began to get upset, so she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it. When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens,
but there was no contact lens to be found. She sat down, despondent, with the rest of the party, waiting for the rest of them to make it up the face of the cliff.
She looked out across range after range of mountains, thinking of that Bible verse that says, "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me."
Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom. At the bottom there was a new party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you
guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"
Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the rock, carrying it! Brenda told me that her father is
a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with the words,
"Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."
At the risk of being accused of being fatalistic, I think it would probably do some of us good to occasionally say, "God, I don't know why you want me to carry
this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to carry it, I will.
"God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.”
As she was hanging on there, the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out her contact lens. Here she is on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below her and hundreds of feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and looked, hoping it had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there. So here she was, far from home, her sight now blurry.
She was desperate and began to get upset, so she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it. When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens,
but there was no contact lens to be found. She sat down, despondent, with the rest of the party, waiting for the rest of them to make it up the face of the cliff.
She looked out across range after range of mountains, thinking of that Bible verse that says, "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me."
Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom. At the bottom there was a new party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you
guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"
Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the rock, carrying it! Brenda told me that her father is
a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with the words,
"Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."
At the risk of being accused of being fatalistic, I think it would probably do some of us good to occasionally say, "God, I don't know why you want me to carry
this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to carry it, I will.
"God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.”
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
i saw Christ...
hehehe, in my funny lil brother as he laughed and laughed at times my family had. he found an old vcr that no one was using and plugged it into his little tv. he took out these old family videos from 1991 and started watching them. he wasn't even 1 year old yet. it was wonderful to see him laugh and get my family together (minus christian, he still has finals up in uc santa cruz) to laugh at old times and how freakin fobby we all were! we had only been here in the states for 2 years. we took a vacation with other relatives to san francisco. as we traveled across the golden gate bridge, you hear a coversation:
me (speaking to the camera): hellow, we're heer, in da golden gate breedts.
and then my grandma goes: why, what does the bridge do?
and my aunt pipes up: not-ing, ma, it's a bridge. it connects land together.
grandma: eh, why is it so spesyal then?
and my brother rolls around laughing throughout all this! his laughter warms the heart!
me (speaking to the camera): hellow, we're heer, in da golden gate breedts.
and then my grandma goes: why, what does the bridge do?
and my aunt pipes up: not-ing, ma, it's a bridge. it connects land together.
grandma: eh, why is it so spesyal then?
and my brother rolls around laughing throughout all this! his laughter warms the heart!
by the way...
i got an interview for my first choice school for nursing. yay! i'm waaay excited for it, but i sooo don't wanna jinx it. so please just pray that He will lead me to where He wants me to be.
there are pros and cons to every program. this one will allow for my master's while i work. however, the first 15 months are intensive and they basically told us in the info session that we couldn't even work part-time. how the heck am i gonna pay my bills? but, as soon as those first 15 months are over, i can sit for the RN exam and once i pass, i can get a job and do the rest of the program online or through seminars. i'm just worried about the funds to cover my debt while i study for those first 15 months. but He provides, so i just follow. it'll all work out, it always does.
there are pros and cons to every program. this one will allow for my master's while i work. however, the first 15 months are intensive and they basically told us in the info session that we couldn't even work part-time. how the heck am i gonna pay my bills? but, as soon as those first 15 months are over, i can sit for the RN exam and once i pass, i can get a job and do the rest of the program online or through seminars. i'm just worried about the funds to cover my debt while i study for those first 15 months. but He provides, so i just follow. it'll all work out, it always does.
need vacation
so it's that time of year... ah, the joys of spring break. do i know such joys? hmmm...
people in school are rejoicing at this time. well, heck i go to school too, but technically my spring break isn't till april. some people have break now and i'm itching to go have my fun too! a friend invited to go to ensenada this coming weekend, and unfortunately, i already planned to volunteer up in the mountains for the weekend. but we might go boarding for half a day on sunday, since we'll be up in the mountains already. think there'll be snow? glenn said girls were boarding in tank tops last weekend; it was that warm. but i'd really like to go away on a trip somewhere. even if it's just mexico or vegas! so, i look in my calendar looking for a free weekend...march is out- going to disneyland with cousins from philippines on the 27th. plus there's a youth mass that sunday also. dazer day is the weekend after, and it's already april. can't go anywhere the weekend after that, cuz it's easter. and the weekend after that, i have jeremie's wedding (can you believe he's getting married?!) but lo and behold! the weekend or at least sat/sun is free on the 24th/25th of april. ahhh! and hmmm, going to frisco the weekend after.
well, i guess spelling it out like that, i can see there's periods of fun coming up-disneyland, maybe snowboarding, wedding, and frisco. but it would just be nice to have a weekend away somewhere.
people in school are rejoicing at this time. well, heck i go to school too, but technically my spring break isn't till april. some people have break now and i'm itching to go have my fun too! a friend invited to go to ensenada this coming weekend, and unfortunately, i already planned to volunteer up in the mountains for the weekend. but we might go boarding for half a day on sunday, since we'll be up in the mountains already. think there'll be snow? glenn said girls were boarding in tank tops last weekend; it was that warm. but i'd really like to go away on a trip somewhere. even if it's just mexico or vegas! so, i look in my calendar looking for a free weekend...march is out- going to disneyland with cousins from philippines on the 27th. plus there's a youth mass that sunday also. dazer day is the weekend after, and it's already april. can't go anywhere the weekend after that, cuz it's easter. and the weekend after that, i have jeremie's wedding (can you believe he's getting married?!) but lo and behold! the weekend or at least sat/sun is free on the 24th/25th of april. ahhh! and hmmm, going to frisco the weekend after.
well, i guess spelling it out like that, i can see there's periods of fun coming up-disneyland, maybe snowboarding, wedding, and frisco. but it would just be nice to have a weekend away somewhere.
Friday, March 12, 2004
robot in a desert
i finally saw the Passion last sunday. and i'm finally blogging about it today. i made a mental note to blog about it, but i guess i misplaced the note or something. i just read kevin nadal's reaction and it reminded me to post my reaction... or rather, my non-reaction. i didn't cry as i expected myself to. i felt tears well up in the beginning, but nothing was pushed over the threshold of tears. i didn't feel an overwhelming sense of love or appreciation. you could say i felt numb. and maybe that's a feeling in itself. i was asking my companions that evening if they cried and i noticed that those who sat beside me in the theatre were obviously disturbed. and i expressed that i didn't. of course, the friends line that was quoted was, what? are you a robot?! and i already saw that coming. we had a laugh and discussed other subjects including the movie.
but i dunno. i know at times when i'm in shock (like if someone died), it takes me a lil while to process it and i'll cry about it later. i thought maybe this was the case. maybe it'll just hit me later. but i dunno. i've had smaller experiences of His passion and death that have affected me so much more. the movie seemed too fabricated and...just too much. not that the suffering wasn't accurate and it's not to deny that it happened. but that's just not what i personally focus on. it's the meaning behind it. i think that's one of my gripes with the movie. i know gibson wanted to focus on His suffering specifically, but i would've liked him to show it full circle. He died in a horrible manner, but why? because of love. because of His love for us, despite our sins against Him. and what happened after? He conquered death because He is God.
if you've been following, you know i haven't been all that well lately. but not so much just physically than emotionally, spiritually maybe? something's off... it's like there's a drought in me. like i'm disconnected. people fast for Lent, give something up. i feel like He's taken Himself away from me on purpose. i'm living in a desert. but maybe i'm the one who's put myself there. He calls me to spend time with Him and i don't. couldn't go to mass ash wednesday, and fine, it wasn't a day of obligation. but i've barely made it to daily mass like how i've planned for this Lent. i've been too busy and misprioritized my time. so no wonder i'm in a drought. and i'm starting to wonder if it'll last all 40 days of Lent. that's a freakin long time man. it's only day 16 and i'm parched.
but i dunno. i know at times when i'm in shock (like if someone died), it takes me a lil while to process it and i'll cry about it later. i thought maybe this was the case. maybe it'll just hit me later. but i dunno. i've had smaller experiences of His passion and death that have affected me so much more. the movie seemed too fabricated and...just too much. not that the suffering wasn't accurate and it's not to deny that it happened. but that's just not what i personally focus on. it's the meaning behind it. i think that's one of my gripes with the movie. i know gibson wanted to focus on His suffering specifically, but i would've liked him to show it full circle. He died in a horrible manner, but why? because of love. because of His love for us, despite our sins against Him. and what happened after? He conquered death because He is God.
if you've been following, you know i haven't been all that well lately. but not so much just physically than emotionally, spiritually maybe? something's off... it's like there's a drought in me. like i'm disconnected. people fast for Lent, give something up. i feel like He's taken Himself away from me on purpose. i'm living in a desert. but maybe i'm the one who's put myself there. He calls me to spend time with Him and i don't. couldn't go to mass ash wednesday, and fine, it wasn't a day of obligation. but i've barely made it to daily mass like how i've planned for this Lent. i've been too busy and misprioritized my time. so no wonder i'm in a drought. and i'm starting to wonder if it'll last all 40 days of Lent. that's a freakin long time man. it's only day 16 and i'm parched.
the dance
this story is especially special to me. you know the story of the footprints in the sand... where you see two footprints in the sand and you know it's from you and Jesus walking together. then you see only one set and you're sad cuz it's when you had the most trial and you needed Him most. but that was when He carried you.
here's an updated version:
FOOTPRINTS...A New Version
Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For
much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily,
consistently, rarely varying the pace.
But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops,
turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.
For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your
footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling His
consistently.
You and Jesus are walking as true friends!
This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: Your footprints
that once etched the sand next to Jesus' are now walking precisely in His
steps.
Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones, you and Jesus are
becoming one.
This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The
footprints inside the large footprints seem to grow larger.
Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints
they have become one.
This goes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is
back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops.
Starts. Gashes in the sand. A variable mess of prints.
You are amazed and shocked.
Your dream ends. Now you pray:
"Lord, I understand the first scene, with zigzags and fits. I was a new
Christian; I was just learning. But You walked on through the storm and
helped me learn to walk with You."
"That is correct."
"And when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually
learning to walk in Your steps, following You very closely."
"Very good.. You have understood everything so far."
When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that I was
becoming like You in every way."
"Precisely."
"So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated,
and this time it was worse than at first."
There is a pause as the Lord answers, with a smile in His voice.
"You didn't know? It was then that we danced!"
To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven: A time to weep, a time to laugh, A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
Ecclesiastes 3:1,4.
here's an updated version:
Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For
much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily,
consistently, rarely varying the pace.
But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops,
turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.
For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your
footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling His
consistently.
You and Jesus are walking as true friends!
This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: Your footprints
that once etched the sand next to Jesus' are now walking precisely in His
steps.
Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones, you and Jesus are
becoming one.
This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The
footprints inside the large footprints seem to grow larger.
Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints
they have become one.
This goes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is
back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops.
Starts. Gashes in the sand. A variable mess of prints.
You are amazed and shocked.
Your dream ends. Now you pray:
"Lord, I understand the first scene, with zigzags and fits. I was a new
Christian; I was just learning. But You walked on through the storm and
helped me learn to walk with You."
"That is correct."
"And when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually
learning to walk in Your steps, following You very closely."
"Very good.. You have understood everything so far."
When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that I was
becoming like You in every way."
"Precisely."
"So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated,
and this time it was worse than at first."
There is a pause as the Lord answers, with a smile in His voice.
"You didn't know? It was then that we danced!"
To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven: A time to weep, a time to laugh, A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
Ecclesiastes 3:1,4.
Thursday, March 11, 2004
day off
so i took the day off yesterday, right? for 2 reasons: i felt like crap and couldn't get out of bed, and i just really really needed a "me" day. i've been feeling like my life is running away with me, out of my control. so i took a "me" day and i ran personal errands, like the ikea and the snowboard thing. also did laundry. and i found something i haven't worn since dana's bday party-yup, that was in the beginning of january. yikes.
as i was strollin around ikea, i had the most wonderful feeling of la-di-da-di-da-ness. it was glorious! i was thinking, this must be how it would be to not work. i looked around me and i saw lots of mom-type people, some with kids, some without (probably in school). and i had the split-second thought of, hmmm, it might be nice to be a stay-at-home mom. then i freaked out in the other split of that split-second and moved on with another thought.
i always said that i'd love it if i were the one that worked and my husband took care of the household things. i'm so not domestic (i mean, it took me 2 months to do laundry, what does that tell you?) and i really like work and the idea of being purposeful. but that little split-second thought and feeling kinda stays with me. i read cyn's blog and see the wonderful pictures of her adorable jieh lahn and goodness, who wouldn't want to stay home with such a blessing? it's been really nice reading throughout her pregnancy and new baby life and it'll be really nice to see how lil jieh lahn grows. it makes me rethink the whole stay-at-home mom thing. it'd be nice to actually experience every little thing with your child. plus, i could stroll around ikea whenever i want. but i suppose i couldn't go 2 months without doing laundry either. blah.
as i was strollin around ikea, i had the most wonderful feeling of la-di-da-di-da-ness. it was glorious! i was thinking, this must be how it would be to not work. i looked around me and i saw lots of mom-type people, some with kids, some without (probably in school). and i had the split-second thought of, hmmm, it might be nice to be a stay-at-home mom. then i freaked out in the other split of that split-second and moved on with another thought.
i always said that i'd love it if i were the one that worked and my husband took care of the household things. i'm so not domestic (i mean, it took me 2 months to do laundry, what does that tell you?) and i really like work and the idea of being purposeful. but that little split-second thought and feeling kinda stays with me. i read cyn's blog and see the wonderful pictures of her adorable jieh lahn and goodness, who wouldn't want to stay home with such a blessing? it's been really nice reading throughout her pregnancy and new baby life and it'll be really nice to see how lil jieh lahn grows. it makes me rethink the whole stay-at-home mom thing. it'd be nice to actually experience every little thing with your child. plus, i could stroll around ikea whenever i want. but i suppose i couldn't go 2 months without doing laundry either. blah.
another cool quiz
from cici & caroline, another fun (and quite accurate!) quiz
1. You are attracted to those who are warm and obedience.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.
4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.
7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your
freedom.
8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.
1. You are attracted to those who are warm and obedience.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.
4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.
7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your
freedom.
8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.
i met Kuya today...
these "daily" things will probably be weekly, i'm sucking at the daily thing...
anyhoo, i met Him at the workshop that we had last tuesday night that my mom took me to at church. the priest and the speakers were really great. i also met Him during my quiet drives and silent times while falling asleep. i usually talk to glenn as the last thing at night and while it's nice bonding time, it was actually really nice on monday to just fall asleep with Him. i think i need that.
i tend to be really clingy with my SO (significant other) and because i haven't been feeling well and because we've both been busy separately, we just haven't spent that much time together this week. and i've been really okay with it. i think i needed to focus on another relationship of mine anyway... with Him, and He's allowed for it to happen this week. sometimes He just calls for us to spend time with Him. we've got our ministries, we've got our service and the good deeds that we do for Him. we've got our worship times and all that, but sometimes, He just calls us to spend time with Him. to just have that one-on-one and yeah, maybe that's what i've been lacking. maybe that's why i've been so off.
anyhoo, i met Him at the workshop that we had last tuesday night that my mom took me to at church. the priest and the speakers were really great. i also met Him during my quiet drives and silent times while falling asleep. i usually talk to glenn as the last thing at night and while it's nice bonding time, it was actually really nice on monday to just fall asleep with Him. i think i need that.
i tend to be really clingy with my SO (significant other) and because i haven't been feeling well and because we've both been busy separately, we just haven't spent that much time together this week. and i've been really okay with it. i think i needed to focus on another relationship of mine anyway... with Him, and He's allowed for it to happen this week. sometimes He just calls for us to spend time with Him. we've got our ministries, we've got our service and the good deeds that we do for Him. we've got our worship times and all that, but sometimes, He just calls us to spend time with Him. to just have that one-on-one and yeah, maybe that's what i've been lacking. maybe that's why i've been so off.
feeling blahhh
been sick, sluggish, but somehow not physically. i think i just needed a few days off. but i'm still feeling really slow. i think God's trying to tell me something. i finally came back to work, only because i need money. not cuz i'm feeling up to it.
you know the feeling when you're just down, but you don't know why? i've been like that for a lil while now. when that time of the month came, i figured it was pms. but if that's so, the feeling should've settled down by now. so something's off, something's wrong, i just don't know what.
it's been nice to take the day off yesterday though. slept in, ran errands. finally picked up my snowboard from the fix-it shop. great place, really friendly! thanx for the referral jongo! and i went to ikea and browsed around as i searched for a closet for all these extra old clothes i really need to get rid of. i totally need to have a garage sale.
so my cousins are here from the philippines. yay! family my age, sort of. the ones my age are married with kids already. or with kids, then married. *sigh* anyway, so they're stuck in pinas. i hope all goes well for these batch of cousins. i'm sure the culture will be a shock, especially cuz they're so much older. harder to learn new things, y'know? but it'll be fun taking them around and stuff.
you know the feeling when you're just down, but you don't know why? i've been like that for a lil while now. when that time of the month came, i figured it was pms. but if that's so, the feeling should've settled down by now. so something's off, something's wrong, i just don't know what.
it's been nice to take the day off yesterday though. slept in, ran errands. finally picked up my snowboard from the fix-it shop. great place, really friendly! thanx for the referral jongo! and i went to ikea and browsed around as i searched for a closet for all these extra old clothes i really need to get rid of. i totally need to have a garage sale.
so my cousins are here from the philippines. yay! family my age, sort of. the ones my age are married with kids already. or with kids, then married. *sigh* anyway, so they're stuck in pinas. i hope all goes well for these batch of cousins. i'm sure the culture will be a shock, especially cuz they're so much older. harder to learn new things, y'know? but it'll be fun taking them around and stuff.
Thursday, March 04, 2004
another fun survey:
i love these!
1. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
not wearing any... hahaah, what are you thinking?! i'm wearing a blue skirt!
2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Slide by GooGoo Dolls
4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
dinner last night
5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
periwinkle blue
6. WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
beautiful! sunny with a slight breeze. lovely!
7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
glenn
8. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
yes i do, she cracks me up!
9. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
back achin'
10. FAVORITE DRINK:
water, cold with no ice
11. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
if it's made well, southern comfort lemon drop
12. FAVORITE SPORTS:
i don't do sports... but flag football was fun, not that i was any good at it. but sorority football can be brutal!
13. HAIR COLOR:
dark brown with some highlights
14. EYE COLOR:
dark brown
15. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
yes
16. SIBLINGS?
2 younger brothers
17. FAVORITE FOOD?
right now, chocolate souffle... heck, chocolate anything
18. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
50 first dates... with my lil brother.
19. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
valentine's day
20. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
no
21. SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer!
22. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships
23. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
chocolate, of course!
24. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
that would be nice
25. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
hehehe, liljay
26. LEAST LIKELY?
glenn, mina
27. LIVING ARRANGEMENT:
with parents, lil brother and a dog
28. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
purpose driven life (yeah, i'm still not done!)
29 WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
i don't have a mouse pad, i have one of those rollerball mice.
30. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
don't really have one, but i like pictionary and trivial pursuit
31. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
worked till 7:30, went to class, went home, ate dinner at 11, talked to gl, slept
32. FAVORITE SMELLS?
hmmm.... i'll have to think about that one
33. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
no
34. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
my parents
35. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
buttered AND salted
36. FAVORITE CAR?
i'm not picky, but i somehow like jaguars... and that thunderbird for some reason
37. FAVORITE FLOWER?
daisies and really unique variations of roses, not the standard red rose
38. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
2-house & car
39. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
no
40. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE TRAPPED IN A ROOM WITH?
someone who doesn't have social skills
41. 7-UP OR SPRITE?
7-up
42. COFFEE?
sure, with cream and sugar please
43. WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE ACTOR/ACTRESS?
Angelina Jolie... just because she's hot! and i like charlize theron, ever since she was on the cover of a magazine highlighting her awesome butt
44. FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE?
divine by victoria's secret
45. FAVORITE BAND OF ALL TIME?
no doubt
46. DOGS OR CATS?
dogs
47. DO YOU FLOSS?
i try to do it regularly *looking guilty*
48. DO YOU BITE YOUR NAILS?
nope
49. PET PEEVES?
incompetent people, also people who are fully capable but act like they're not because of low self-esteem or laziness or because they know someone else will step up and they'd rather not step up themselves.
50. FAVORITE TV SHOW(S):
friends, ally mcbeal when it was on
51. HONESTLY, WOULD YOU EVER DATE SOMEONE WITH AN INCURABLE STD?
probably not
52. CAN YOU STILL COUNT HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU'VE SLEPT WITH?
yes
53. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS SOMEDAY?
of course
54. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE?
hawaii
55. FUTURE KIDS NAMES?
mary ...something... rose (haven't decided on the "something")
56. HAVE YOU EVER CHEATED ON A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
yes
57. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CHEATED ON?
i think so
58. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO YOU.
patrice is really sweet, funny, loves her kuya and whole family a lot. it's been a pleasure getting to know you!
1. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
not wearing any... hahaah, what are you thinking?! i'm wearing a blue skirt!
2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Slide by GooGoo Dolls
4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
dinner last night
5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
periwinkle blue
6. WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
beautiful! sunny with a slight breeze. lovely!
7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
glenn
8. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
yes i do, she cracks me up!
9. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
back achin'
10. FAVORITE DRINK:
water, cold with no ice
11. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
if it's made well, southern comfort lemon drop
12. FAVORITE SPORTS:
i don't do sports... but flag football was fun, not that i was any good at it. but sorority football can be brutal!
13. HAIR COLOR:
dark brown with some highlights
14. EYE COLOR:
dark brown
15. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
yes
16. SIBLINGS?
2 younger brothers
17. FAVORITE FOOD?
right now, chocolate souffle... heck, chocolate anything
18. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
50 first dates... with my lil brother.
19. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
valentine's day
20. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
no
21. SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer!
22. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships
23. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
chocolate, of course!
24. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
that would be nice
25. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
hehehe, liljay
26. LEAST LIKELY?
glenn, mina
27. LIVING ARRANGEMENT:
with parents, lil brother and a dog
28. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
purpose driven life (yeah, i'm still not done!)
29 WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
i don't have a mouse pad, i have one of those rollerball mice.
30. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
don't really have one, but i like pictionary and trivial pursuit
31. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
worked till 7:30, went to class, went home, ate dinner at 11, talked to gl, slept
32. FAVORITE SMELLS?
hmmm.... i'll have to think about that one
33. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
no
34. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
my parents
35. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
buttered AND salted
36. FAVORITE CAR?
i'm not picky, but i somehow like jaguars... and that thunderbird for some reason
37. FAVORITE FLOWER?
daisies and really unique variations of roses, not the standard red rose
38. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
2-house & car
39. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
no
40. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE TRAPPED IN A ROOM WITH?
someone who doesn't have social skills
41. 7-UP OR SPRITE?
7-up
42. COFFEE?
sure, with cream and sugar please
43. WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE ACTOR/ACTRESS?
Angelina Jolie... just because she's hot! and i like charlize theron, ever since she was on the cover of a magazine highlighting her awesome butt
44. FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE?
divine by victoria's secret
45. FAVORITE BAND OF ALL TIME?
no doubt
46. DOGS OR CATS?
dogs
47. DO YOU FLOSS?
i try to do it regularly *looking guilty*
48. DO YOU BITE YOUR NAILS?
nope
49. PET PEEVES?
incompetent people, also people who are fully capable but act like they're not because of low self-esteem or laziness or because they know someone else will step up and they'd rather not step up themselves.
50. FAVORITE TV SHOW(S):
friends, ally mcbeal when it was on
51. HONESTLY, WOULD YOU EVER DATE SOMEONE WITH AN INCURABLE STD?
probably not
52. CAN YOU STILL COUNT HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU'VE SLEPT WITH?
yes
53. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS SOMEDAY?
of course
54. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE?
hawaii
55. FUTURE KIDS NAMES?
mary ...something... rose (haven't decided on the "something")
56. HAVE YOU EVER CHEATED ON A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
yes
57. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CHEATED ON?
i think so
58. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO YOU.
patrice is really sweet, funny, loves her kuya and whole family a lot. it's been a pleasure getting to know you!
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
weap0ns 0f mass destructi0n
this was freakin' hilarious! i got it from an email forward:
Try this very soon, before someone forces Google to fix its site:
1) Go to www.google.com
2) Type in: weapons of mass destruction (DON'T hit return)
3) Hit the "I'm feeling lucky" button, NOT the "Google search"
4) Read the "error message" carefully - the WHOLE page.
Someone at Google really has a sense of humour.
Try this very soon, before someone forces Google to fix its site:
1) Go to www.google.com
2) Type in: weapons of mass destruction (DON'T hit return)
3) Hit the "I'm feeling lucky" button, NOT the "Google search"
4) Read the "error message" carefully - the WHOLE page.
Someone at Google really has a sense of humour.
i met Kuya Jess today...
this'll be a nice daily section, especially this season of Lent. got the idea from b.anne (i finally know what this means! i'm part of the club now!), and i'll keep it up in addition to whatever else is on my mind every day.
so i got into a car accident last night...got rear ended severely as the big bad white ford truck behind me was not paying attention. i saw Kuya Jess in mina whom i was talking with and i felt her deep concern for me as she heard me scream with the phone flying to smack me in the chin, landing on the passenger seat. i also saw it in glenn who missed his class to come over and comfort me... and even in lil jay who asked how i'm doing earlier... thanx guys... i truly appreciate it.
so i got into a car accident last night...got rear ended severely as the big bad white ford truck behind me was not paying attention. i saw Kuya Jess in mina whom i was talking with and i felt her deep concern for me as she heard me scream with the phone flying to smack me in the chin, landing on the passenger seat. i also saw it in glenn who missed his class to come over and comfort me... and even in lil jay who asked how i'm doing earlier... thanx guys... i truly appreciate it.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
oh my gosh, i've got pieces of glaze in my hair. i think i've had enough.
sweet tooth
oh my goodness... it seems today is donut day. two coworkers from my dept brought in 2 boxes of donuts each! one set was krispy kreme assorted and plain glazed, and another was all kinds of bear claws, cinnamon roll looking things, chocolate things, and they were huge! so far today, i had 1 krispy kreme glazed & 1 krispy creme chocolate topped with custard filling for breakfast. then i ate my pancit baon that i brought. then i had a craving for something sweet, so i ate a half of a bear claw. i thought, i don't wanna eat a whole one, it's too big. then i went back to get the other half of the bear claw. so that's 3 donuts total before 2pm. i just went back right now for another glazed and the last bear claw. ohhh, it's sooo good!
just call me oink oink... good thing i didn't give up sweets for lent. i never knew bear claws were sooo good!
just call me oink oink... good thing i didn't give up sweets for lent. i never knew bear claws were sooo good!
not the same...
the weekend... there's simply too much to say or describe... it was busy and yes, i am thoroughly spent. so spent that i took yesterday off work. good thing too cuz it was the postmark deadline for the master's program i'm applying for. crap, it was rather stressful.
everytime i come home from days, i come home with an overwhelming sense of love for my parents and my family. i just want to hold them and tell them how much i love them. and days does that, it simply does. but this batch's sunday had a lil thorn on its side and i came away feeling frustrated and angry. i know it's not something i can help or control, but it was just so frustrating! i really expect more out of adults... out of parents even more so! some people just have issues to deal with and it's unfortunate. i'm sorry i get so riled up about this and i know i just have to let go and let God. you know who's great at doing that? regina was just absolutely awesome! that girl has the patience of a saint! she gathered us together so nicely and just prayed beautifully. thank God for reg.
and look! i've been quoted! see march 1 post.
everytime i come home from days, i come home with an overwhelming sense of love for my parents and my family. i just want to hold them and tell them how much i love them. and days does that, it simply does. but this batch's sunday had a lil thorn on its side and i came away feeling frustrated and angry. i know it's not something i can help or control, but it was just so frustrating! i really expect more out of adults... out of parents even more so! some people just have issues to deal with and it's unfortunate. i'm sorry i get so riled up about this and i know i just have to let go and let God. you know who's great at doing that? regina was just absolutely awesome! that girl has the patience of a saint! she gathered us together so nicely and just prayed beautifully. thank God for reg.
and look! i've been quoted! see march 1 post.
liwanag spirit rally
it'll be great fun!
quotable quotes
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"To try is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard of life is to risk nothing. The person who risks
nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing. He may avoid
suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, live, and love."
~unknown
"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues."
~ Abraham Lincoln
"live a life that others will remember years from now, NOT because it pointed to you but because of how it pointed to the One who made you."
~ Mark Hart, the Bible Geek
"we grow up learning to become self-reliant, but really we need to be God-reliant"
"we could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box"
"never wound hearts that love u, never give them the endless pain, because wounded hearts are like roses that never bloom"
"there comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we'd let go"
